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Many of you probably don’t know my story, some of you do. It involved a light aircraft crash that I had to identify the victims of in the wreckage. It was truly truly awful. I have been through some very dark and hard times with PTSD but just recently have been doing pretty well. However, my...

Hello, just a quick little message to say hi. It's a long time since I have been on here. I was kind of relying on the forum and chat too much as at one point it was all that kept me going. I also think I made myself unpopular with the mods and so I quietly walked away. I have looked in and...

Does anybody else purposely deprive themselves of sleep as kind of a punishment to themselves? I am just not sleeping properly at all and it's largely self inflicted. I keep myself awake almost as a kind of punishment. It's kind of self harming or abusing. I am having severe problems with...

I lost my dad last night. He was 88 and has been unwell for a long time but it's still so hard. I am broken into a million pieces and can't even begin to know what to do to cope. I adored my dad. He was my world. My hubby and I live with my mum and despite me being 51 she has forbidden me to...

I don't know if anyone else feels this. Just lately I feel I am struggling more and more to maintain friendships on various levels. Here I often go into chat and follow the conversations but am too scared to join in for fear of not being wanted there. I often feel I am in the way or spoiling...

I don't quite know where to start with this. It's my second attempt at trying to write it. I gave up last night... I feel I am in a total mess and dont know how to move forwards. On top of the long standing stuff I have going on, 10 days ago my father was rushed into hospital with a very...

I don't really know what to call this thread. I don't even know quite how to describe what I am thinking and feeling. I am experiencing my worst ever spell of disassociation. I am constantly just burdening people with my rubbish. It's not right, it has to stop. My friends have had enough of me...

I am at a loss right now, I don't know what to do or who to turn to. I saw my T friend today for what was going to be a therapy session for me but ended up helping her through something awful she has experienced and not getting to talk about anything else. She is my friend and I love her dearly...

i have been talking to a dear friend on here and have really realised how much I struggle with accepting when I am ill or injured and also in admitting it to others and so seeking help for myself. I have got in the mess I am in now by trying to not accept that I was ill and worst still not...

I am driving myself, and probably everyone around me, mad by being so needy all the time lately. I just seem to not be able to function and cope on my own right now. I am struggling with my injuries, had my trauma anniversary to get through last weekend, am signed off work and either stuck...

I am at the end of my tether. I am a laughing stock. I am deeply depressed. I am excessively anxious. I think about dark actions constantly. I don't want to be me any more. I can't do it. I care for and worry about people that don't want me to care for or worry about them. I am a nuisance to...

I am guessing that this has been covered before but I am approaching my trauma anniversary and it is always a hard time for me but this is the first year since my diagnosis and I am already struggling with it and it's not until 22 October so a month tomorrow, which in itself is almost like...

I am hoping that some of you might be able to help me or offer me some advice. All throughout my PTSD diagnosis and up until now, I have been working full time. I had been seeing a qualified therapist privately as the NHS wait was so long and I have now swapped to a lady that I have been...

I had a rather unsettling nightmare last night. It started off as they usually do with all the normal stuff about the accident scene of my trauma. It then flicked to being at my flying club still on the same day. It then progressed to a male friend of mine giving me a hug and then him saying...

I am hoping that some of you can throw some thoughts or opinions into the mix for me. I started seeing a counsellor in April in conjunction with my PTSD diagnosis. I have had 6 sessions with him and he then had a holiday which meant that I had a 6 week break from seeing him. While I was...

I was very suddenly and very strongly triggered in the early hours of this morning. Reacted really badly to it, kept crying, felt sick, was dizzy, awful flashbacks and panic. I eventually went to sleep after swallowing pain killers and Ativan. Felt really exhausted when I woke up and not up...

This is probably going to sound a weird thing to ask but does anyone happen to know if there is anywhere that is perhaps a bit like a hospital but not, where you can go for some kind of respite care to get away from a toxic home environment? My home situation is not good at all, I have a hugely...

OK, I am not expecting any of you to believe me in what I am going to say now because I don't believe it myself! How can it be possible to have so much go so wrong with me in the space of a few months, and all since my PTSD diagnosis! As some of you will be aware, I dislocated my shoulder back...

I just wanted to post a very big and public thank you to the lovely people in chat land. Twice recently I have been very unwell and turned to chat for some help and support and received it by the bucket load. The first time was a couple of weeks ago when I collapsed at home following passing...

I had a rather nasty unexpected trigger this morning. I was on my way to work when a colleague called me asking if there was any chance we could give them a lift as they had stayed at a friends house last night and when they came out to go to work their car would not start. I spoke to my other...

I am not sure if this is the right place to post this or not but hopefully so. One of my big passions in life is music, particularly guitar. I have been learning to play for about 3 years now and to be honest am not tremendously good still but I love it. Whilst my shoulder is injured I am...

I hate to say it but I am thinking that maybe it is time for me to say goodbye to the forum. I have 'met' some lovely and wonderful people, some with amazing stories, some who have achieved incredible things. However, this has made me realise that my story is so insignificant. I am just...

This is not entirely linked to my PTSD however I firmly believe that it is made worse by it and that one sets off the other. About three years ago now, my father had a mini stroke which whilst he recovered from physically left him with dementia. Eventually after a year of us trying to cope...

Hi, I was just wondering if exhaustion is part of PTSD?? I am just constantly tired just lately. Fall asleep on settee a lot but cannot sleep well when I go to bed as I am so afraid of the nightmares. It has only been worse since dislocating my shoulder as struggle with the pain at night. I...

i thought perhaps it was better to start a thread here instead of keeping going onto chat, although the lovely folk on there are being so tolerant. I am just not coping this week at all. It started on Monday with my visit to the hospital having injured my hand, ending up pumped full of pain...