An Unsettling Dream

[Blackjack]

I had a rather unsettling nightmare last night.

It started off as they usually do with all the normal stuff about the accident scene of my trauma. It then flicked to being at my flying club still on the same day. It then progressed to a male friend of mine giving me a hug and then him saying to me "do you mind if we make this a bit more intimate than a hug" and him kissing me in a passionate kind of way several times. It was very graphic and very real at the time.

I woke up with a real start as I have never thought of this guy in that way at all. Yes, I love him but as a dear and valued friend. That kind of thing has never featured at all in our friendship, not in any way whatsoever. He is a very happily married man and I have never had thoughts like that about him.

Help!!! Its very unsettling and I kind of feel strange about seeing him, almost as if he will know (which of course he wont but my PTSD brain does not see it like that).

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Try to think of it as just a bad dream and try to shake it off. It is not real although it may feel real. Who knows what the stuff of dreams are made of? I am sorry that this has troubled you so much. I wish you much good distraction now to take the focus off of the dream and on to happier better things if you can. :hug: