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Didn't know he swooped through until later. Lucky shot 👍

I've been learning about the differences between hyperarousal and hypervigilance today. I seem to fit somewhere into both of those classifications to some degree but what really struck me was an article on Emotional Hypervigilance. You know that phrase "take the temperature of the room?" Well...

Something always brings me back 😏

Infirmary at Eastern State Penitentiary I was obsessed with this spot. Couldn't stop thinking "this is exactly the place I live in my head" I've since moved 🤣

Although its been about 7 years since my last SI I vividly remember chasing the relief that it would bring me. A permanent stoppage to it all. Looking back i realize that it was a mood stabilizer. When I was feeling up it was "don't get ahead of yourself because you're just going to hurt...

Welcome @BlueWillow ! I'm new as well and I've found that there are endless resources here to help. Unfortunately I don't have any simple answers for but I do share some of your experience. I have done a massive amount of work on myself for 10 years and could not seem to break through my...

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Thought about the small victories my daughter is making despite her special needs and the joy on her face when we recognize them. 😍 Also, the time my 1 y/o son took out of his busy morning to fart on my lap. I swear he thinks they are "daddy gifts" 🤦‍♂️

Never underestimate the mighty egos grasp FLANGE

Being so new to cptsd treatment can be very confusing for me. Heres a few things that affect me daily. I suffer from crippling toxic shame. The type of shame that stops me mid sentence. My body floods with adrenaline and my face gets purple. At times, especially recently, I almost pass out. My...

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My wife is currently dealing with this as pushes through her anxiety. We've discovered that the term used to describe it is "air hunger." I watch her all day long attempt to yawn and take deep breaths which causes her to have other symptoms because that's not how humans normally breathe. Oxygen...

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Sorry guys I royal screwed that whole thing up! 🤣 I can't figure out how to post simple jpegs

One more believer/supporter/listener here! The vulnerability and courage you're displaying is awe inspiring. My experience may be helpful? Between the ages of 6-10 I experienced SA from a boy down the street. It plagued me for most of my entire life and instilled intrusive thoughts like "I'm...

New here as well but in these last few days I have found more support and understanding than the 10 years previous. I too help other people through their struggles yet fail to manage my own cptsd. I can really relate to the "enough of this" epiphany! Welcome to the forum from one newbie to...

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Thank you for your response @Mee I've thought a lot about the word recovery as it applies to my process and I think your application is beautiful. To let go and grieve 'the old you' sounds like a wonderful rebirth.

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NA brethren here too! I cannot believe I made it to "old timer" status lol. Especially because I can remember crawling through those doors so vividly. Hugs will always be welcome here 🤗 As for your devastating loss... I am so so sorry. 3 years into recovery I had a child. Because of a...

I've met Bill W a few times but im really close to his son 🤣 I once heard that love and fear cannot occupy the same space. Right now fear is prevalent 90% of the time so the least I can do is practice those loving activities I learned in early recovery even if I don't feel the love behind them...

Thank you @ladee for your support. The therapist I have now i trust implicitly and I understand how lucky I am to have that. He called me out last session for chasing solutions instead of being with the feelings which is what spurred this post. I see him once a week and my wife is ultra...