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@Movingforward10 we do a handwritten card on each of her vacations. Even just the card, without opening it, helps. We are currently online. She had some in person spots, but I can’t do the day she chose. I was going to switch for summer, but the building is now going to be under construction...

The reason she doesn’t do email response is because when she used to, it became problematic. Sometimes the way she responded triggered me and made things worse. Or if she didn’t respond within a few days I almost went into sh. I was relying on email response for reassurance and would check...

My T asked me how I get out of the trance when I’m triggered. The back story is that I’ve had an increase of flashbacks or relationship conflicts leading to some very painful negative beliefs about myself in the last few months. My T has helped me very sparingly between sessions and removed...

I have experienced many different rates with the same therapist. Started on insurance: $45 copay for 50 minutes. Then, couldn’t afford the insurance and went on the sliding scale and paid $55. The next year the sliding scale bumped up to $65. Got market place insurance and the copay was...

I just woke up, but will be sleeping soon. Stress dream fun, for me.

I have had intense transference with my T. It will settle down as we work through it and then bubble back up again. It sucks. Imagine four years of this BS?

Or sleep. Lol

Well... today, we worked out the rupture and my new fear of her, a bit. It was trauma based. She asked what I did to handle the “trance” during the week. She pointed out all the positives in how I handled it. Then we pointed to the little T’s of my early childhood and we focused on that. My...

Not to merge this with my post on GAD, but reading this is raising my medical anxiety. I get a very specific chest pain with my anxiety and panic attacks. I have never seen a cardiologist, especially since the pain has been exactly the same each time for the past 4 years. Should people go in...

@joeylittle Yes, I do have attachment and abandonment issues that we work on a lot. My main problem in conflict, misunderstandings and relational triggers is that my mind makes things so much bigger than they are and it will then set my nervous system into chaos and I try to solve the...

I’m starting to think that my GAD tends to run over my ptsd triggers. For example, my therapist asked me to imagine viewing my young self’s trauma as a movie. She kept mentioning how to imagine looking at it beginning to end at a distance as a movie. She kept saying “movie camera.” Next...

I was reading an article written for trauma therapists on what to do. In one part it said that ptsd will cause clients to avoid everything about their trauma and to work on discussing and getting exposure to it. It also said that if a client is ruminating, it is trauma looping in their...

I hate them too.

@Waterbear I’m pretty sure that is why my T keeps strongly encouraging the work on “9” despite all of the other older flashes I have been experiencing lately. There is definitely a denial present. The memories that are there would still qualify as a big T. The part that I don’t know is if...

I’ve been in therapy for almost 4 years with cptsd so it’s possible that’s why I’m able to do some of that stuff. The youngest stuff isn’t as bad as 9, so it’s like 9 is the base of my Big T’s.

We’ve done a lot of “what is the earliest moment you felt this feeling.” I’ll sometimes go back really young in my memories. But when it comes to the Big stuff, it always ends back at age 9. The odd part of this is that I had completely blocked that trauma from my memory. It’s carefully woven...

@David1959 I agree. I’m now okay with people knowing that I have ptsd or an “anxiety disorder.” However, when it comes to what happened, I don’t want people to know. When I see people openly talking about their traumas on tv programs, I really don’t know how they are doing it.

The idea that parents are supposed to be perfect beings that know what they are doing at all times is some sort of storybook fantasy. My T once said that she has found that most parents want what’s best for their children, even the abusive ones. Only, the abusive parents tend to lack the...

I am very sorry that you are struggling. I’m curious who told you that you have ptsd? Are you seeing a therapist? With your questions on friendships, I’d recommend that you google some stuff on attachment. What happened to you with your “friends” was certainly traumatic. It would make...

A friend of mine had a similar problem. They have apartments that back up to their home and kids were throwing giant rocks at their house/windows and such. They had to negotiate with the apartment complex to build a bigger, better kept fence. The kids and their parents were terrible. Years...

@lostforgottensoul have you ever considered that “talking to yourself” is talking to your parts? It’s like I said, everyone is made of parts. We all have conversations in our head. Maybe you are already doing what you are trying to figure out how to do?

Once my parts came forward, I started to communicate with them at a conference table in my head. Later we started meeting in a childhood living room to appease the little ones. It’s strange... this stuff is more imaginative and figurative to me, but they also seem very real and at times some...

I’m not sure with me. Not sick with first shot. Second shot brought on constant body aches and fever 10 hours in. It lasted 24 hours. Then the fever went away in the day and came back on the following night. I’m sitting here wondering if my increase in anxiety is a side effect of illness...

Has anyone that had the moderna vaccine had a spike in anxiety symptoms? Can an mRNA vaccine affect nerves/anxiety in that way?

It’s hard at 16 because your parents still have a say on who you see. As an adult, you can interview therapists and ask around. I find that looking up reviews will help get you get started but the interview is the best way to go. I was traumatized by my first therapist as an adult. I had...