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You have every right to be mad. I don't know if he knows the details surrounding things (not saying he needs to know), but if he does he is in denial or minimizing. It makes me angry, especially because he said he should be scared of you. That is poop. You deserve to have people take your...

I have what I call "Daymares". It might be a bit different than what you are describing. And for me, this has started going on the past few months. I will space out and see different scenarios in my head and react emotionally to them. (Most of my flashbacks are mostly emotional, but I am not...

No new memories, but I wanted to record some of my triggers this weekend. Last night I went to an engagement party for my oldest brother and fiance. I was arriving with my mum, who took a nap before hand, so we arrived about a half hour late. I don't really like to come late, it makes me feel a...

I have not read the book, but I watched the movie based on the book many years ago. I loved it, very powerful!

I pushed myself really hard to call my one friend during my lunch break tonight since she offered that she is open to talk tonight even though she can't come tomorrow. I had a bad feeling about it, and am always afraid people will tell me I am being silly, nothing bad will happen. But I called...

I guess I will start off with a positive. Just texted my friend and asked if she can join me tomorrow when I get an oil change for my car since I am having very bad anxiety and can use emotional support. My brain is trying to get me to think of all these bad things. Like a ton of stuff with be...

The other day I went out to eat with my family. My younger brother ordered a six ounce steak and when he received his food, I could tell he was disappointed with how small it was. I was surprised by how small it was, as well. After a few minutes he said outloud, look at how small the steak was...

I used to take Zoloft. It helped with anxiety for me. But when I was on the medicine, for me, I felt more numb than when I was off them. I was unable to cry or feel happy. When I decided to get off of it, I did notice anxiety coming back. When I got off of Zoloft, we did lower it over a number...

She reminds me to remember to do grounding techniques. And to let myself feel my emotions, not try to stop them. Keep journaling. Thought stopping if my mind is racing. I haven't really found a middle ground yet. I either feel pretty numb, or I feel triggered/highly on edge and feel over...

Just an update. My therapist shared with me that she thinks it is normal response, having a panic attack, because it happens to her. She took a risk in sharing this with me. I know she wanted me to feel normal and that my response isn't abnormal. Honestly, I think she must be biased and still...

I am not sure how much I take on other peoples problems (or maybe I do and just don't see it that way). But I can definitely read other peoples feelings and feel for them. Just last night at work a co-worked I talk to sometimes sat down and I took one look and knew she felt frustrated or...

Thank you for that. Really. :) I have had a lot of time to think the past few days at work. I was thinking about that I actually really wanted someone to respond to this thread and say what you did, that it was damn important. I was also thinking of how I want people to respond when I share my...

It frustrates me a bit when this happens. I guess in time it may show us why it is triggering. I remember this happening to someone I knew and that was what I thought when they told me, as well. I can only imagine how creepy that can feel if one is unsure of what is happening. @Barberian Very...

I have a TON blocked out as well. It is really hard for me, but I remind myself that when I show my body/brain that I am ready, that I can deal with it, I will remember. When I write I remind myself it is okay to let myself feel. I take what I do remember, or thoughts I know I had, and tell...

Yes, I think that is happening. Especially with the people who have believed/took me seriously are convinced that something worse must have happened for my huge memory blocks and dissociation. I know myself that it was horrible with just the emotional/verbal, even if I can't feel it know, I...

How did you get to this place? I have gotten there in the past, but have closed down again and am having a very hard time opening up again. It was very good for me when I trusted my intuition, very good. But I seemed to get bashed or brought down for believing in it. On my best days I am...

I am having a hard time letting myself be upset over small memories I have remembered. Basically, I feel like I just push them away and don't want to think about them. But I know I need to be okay with them and know they affected me or be okay with how it made me feel. My last few memories that...

From personal experience, I have not had any luck with non trauma specializing therapist. My last one (before I went to a specialist) even had "experience" in trauma. The problem that I have had is that no one really understood the dissociation or how my emotions worked. I had many times where...

I can get very bad period cramps/pain. I can get very angry/irritable about it, and often I feel strong urges to self-injure when I have bad cramps. I do not have any memories (that I can recall at least) of anything that would make me react this way. So maybe my cramps just feel that painful to...

Thanks for sharing your experience. Can you explain more about "retraction of consciousness" and what it means? I have not heard of that term before. That is a good way to look at it. Thanks.

Holy moly, that would be creepy! I can totally understand why you were doing the windmill. :joyful: I'm glad.

Oh geez.... that is a scary thought! I wonder how many times it happened by accident.

Thanks for everyone sharing their stories. It is putting a smile on my face this morning :) It is just funny sometimes of some of these things happening, because what are the chances, you know? Oh my gosh! That is like something out of a movie, lol. I hope it didn't go in the ditch. :) That...

I went out today to pick up some food, and then went back to my car. I walked up to my car and pressed the unlock button. Car wouldn't open when I pulled on the door handle... I pressed the unlock button again and heard the door unlock. I continued to pull open the door and start to throw my...

Thank you! I was really proud of myself for letting myself feel the emotions instead of distract myself right after it happened like I tend to do most times. I agree with not feeling as free to defend myself at work, as well. I have been wondering lately if I have been able to feel more, which...