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It happens to me so often. It is like small death inside when i realise how much i tired and there is nobody who understands me fully. And that time I either want to break all relationshipbecause of frustration or just go to isolation. Yea,, I can contact my T but she also isn't always in in...

Proceeding with my new life and therapy. Sex has become not so emotional issue...and it is upsetting because it had to be smth very special.... But as for therspy issues we found out I have some fears in sex. I can't explain them cognitively but i have lots of emotions when I see eyes too...

Partially you are right and indeed we used to work on self-esteem issues and it became much better. But this is another. It is about feelings in body. Like i feel smth physically and this is so overhelming that I can't bare then i guess

I had been thinking there wouldn't be anything new or unexpected in my therapy. But Last time while doing EMDR technique I felt so good that all of a sudden i burst into tears . And it is the second time I am feeling like that . Later on I realised that I never was really happy and free and...

@Simply Simon , I'm impressed. It sounds as you really feel very well what is going on with me. Yes, some time i realised it was for inducing dissociation. Yes, just recently I discovered a new great way for "keeping in touch" with myself(though it causes hmmm.??additional challenges because it...

Thank you all! My progress had just like stopped and i was very frustrated and felt awful even could not read this forum for a long ....and last time i finally said it (about childhood "pictures " ) to my therapist in the end of the session so tomorrow I'm waiting for some new steps in the...

Thank you @grit, you made me cry,you are very caring and wise.

Thank you for your replies! I had a session and it was the weirdest of all before. @Skywatcher, i managed to tell her i was very frustrated and compared it with small death explaining that after which i dont feel neither safe not oriented how to live at all. but it was just "sorry i couldnt...

She didn t respond. She saw my messages and like ignored it. And only much later she typed when we can meet (we dont have the same schedule every week) but it is too late. I asked to meet that Thursday and now it's Tuesday evening and I had terrible days and states. I survived. What for is...

No feelings left no emotions. She had left me when i needed it a lot. Twice in a row. What is the use to see her now? I know I can't expect anybody will be available any time i need but she promised. And she left and that was a disaster. But now I function without her. And dont feel trust to...

I once wrote it in chat but repeat it here. Thank you, PTSD.COM staff for being the most caring and helpful staff ever.The new design looks very good. Going to explore the rest options

?then we have to wait Sorry that i ask my question in your tread but how can i change my colour? It is suicidal colour for me ((

Sophy, I guess they will appear a bit later but now you can use emojis from your phone

It is not much of offence. Just one more situation when you feel that you are abnormal and not adaptive to the society rules (I talk about only myself of course)

I dont know if you are ok with working on " parts". If yes- comfort your little Eve. She is scared. Reassure her she is not alone and do not have to fight for herself. There are people who really love her and care. And maybe not always the way she needs but they really love her. And you love...

Does anybody have any ideas with question 1 please? Or does your silence mean I had an abuse but do not remember it.. Because this idea has just pop up and I'm a bit shocked.

I wish I had found this forum long ago and like you posted the same message. It is like all about me (except rape but who knows). Run away. Please run. If you don't do it It will be only worse. Though it seems as the worst will come when you leave him, when your mother critise you. NO. the...

Sure, but at this situations when coming back the next day I would type smth like "oh sorry I left you suddenly "... But here I speak about tendency not to say bye at all

@Esterio, I do understand you. Once I questioned the same issue in another forum and they just told me that I'm overdramatising and causing problems. I do believe people leave without saying goodbye without any bad intentions but I still don't understand why they intentionally not try to be...

Oh, @Sophy, you have just described it do accurately. Today I had a completely empty day because of this " infant being". And you are right it is so so young that I can't even say that I am a child then. Because a child at least wants smth. Today the whole day I was forcing myself to feel at...

"Reinventing your life" by J. Young

Just got back after therapist . Sorry for too much emotions in my previous post(( @Abstract , no ( at least I do not remember it) I had never seen anything even naked before. But my imagination somehow managed to depict it ...

Yes . With a child. And now I'm not coping already. He has just told me he wants to be with father because he gives him presents and promises everything though he seems does not notice his father remembers him once a while and do not give money even for food( while I'm doing everything...

No replies at all((( am I so hopeless ?

Remembered! Coffee helps me to "jump out" from this. But then I become tooo anxious but more ptoductuve, so i have smth like in that saying : what to choose between two evils ..