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I'm broken. I feel like I can't do anything right. I feel like I'm a disappointment and causing difficulty for others including those that care for me the deepest. If people are this broken, can they ever be a functional part of society ever again? Or am I doomed to feel like "yes, the world...

I ended up staying in and doing just that. At around 11pm last night my boyfriend called me to tell me how much he loves me and that I'm the only one he thinks and cares about this way. I went to bed crying feeling like I didn't deserve how great he is to me. I can't get myself out of bed today...

I should be happy that my supporter/boyfriend is coming back to town tomorrow evening. He's been out of town on a business trip since Tuesday morning this week and that was only a day after the whole crap happened with his roommate/my trigger. It's not that I'm avoiding his return, I'm just...

I get like this when I spend far too much time away from my hourly planner. I space some extra time inbetween tasks in case I need more time and remind myself that it's just one step at a time; just one thing at a time. Another thing I tried to do when I used to have multiple things I had to...

I can't tell you how much I actually relate to you on this topic. It's weird though because people who don't understand what we've all been through will start up saying "why can't you just let the little things go?" when in reality it's the little things that give you the warning of the bigger...

My therapist and I talked on the phone today about how my brain tends to fixate on things that are harmful for me to dwell on. I mentioned to her that I have taken up a new hobby to help distract myself from the fixation and to permit for me to do something I enjoy. My new hobby is photography...

Hi Demon, Yes, I've experienced this before. Usually the most I have these in the greatest frequency is following an encounter with a trigger, whether or not I'm aware that I have, sometimes. I saw the snakes a few months back in my dreams, too. Because the lack of proper sleep ends up...

Ooh, sounds like something I could make use of. I second what Ms Spock said: thanks, LizardViolet!

((((((((Eleanor))))))) you are so incredibly sweet. (((((((Nimkekaa))))) you are completely right in that I shouldn't be around people like that who could say those sorts of things to me without any understanding of the weight of their words. It bothers me when people feel like it's alright...

Breathing is such a challenge right now. I can't fight this feeling of wanting to just disappear. I don't feel safe, and I can't stop crying. I know that if I left, I would leave some very sad people behind, and I wouldn't want to hurt the people that I love and care for; that and having to go...

I've contemplated this same question time and time again, and spoken with my therapist about it as well. The only conclusion I have been able to draw was that it wouldn't matter because even if they were being genuine about their apology you have no way of knowing and it's not going to cause any...

Thank you so much, Christina! I'll start looking into these immediately. My mother is a nutritionist, so I'll be sure to check with her about recommended amounts to take a day. If I come across natural foods that contain these vitamins and minerals, I'll be sure to keep you posted!

I shake externally when I'm about to have an anxiety attack, usually only caused by a trigger or flashback. I shake internally first, so persay I can feel my heart start to beat faster, a little out of rhythm and harder so much so that I can feel my heart beating and pumping throughout my body...

Hi Christina, I suffer from PTSD and actively try to avoid taking any medications like yourself since I believe in the holistic approach to treatment. I was wondering what sorts of supplements you were taking other than lithium orotate. I have only been trying to supplement my healing with...

Radise, your post has brought me so much happiness today. I can't explain it but I felt this warmth and a smile take over me when I read your post. I am so incredibly happy for you! I've come to realize a few months ago the same things you have about yourself that you mentioned in this post...

Today's only gotten worse... My car got vandalized by a gang last night/this morning in my apartment complex parking lot. They've keyed the entire thing minus two doors and have gang writing on it now. I broke down this morning and started to cry when I saw it. My car wasn't the nicest or the...

A known trigger of mine is downstairs, and just hearing her footsteps puts me on edge. I went from being completely complacent and happy to furrow-browed and frightened. I need to go downstairs to get the laundry from the dryer, and to start cooking dinner (since I haven't eaten all day), but I...

I'm a sufferer, not a supporter, but I often try to read the supporter pages too to get an idea of what my boyfriend goes through when I'm being insufferable especially since I have hypervigilant tendencies. Something I saw someone else recommend to another supporter was to ask them if they...

It gives you something to look forward to! :) I'm happy you found a therapist that is right for you!!

Do as I say, not as I do. Haha. I have been many times accused of overthinking, and I recognize when I do it too, I just can't seem to stop. It's something I'm working on. I think what your therapist means is that your projecting your frustration, your anger, your insecurities etc onto them...

Yes, and sadly I'm going through it at the moment too. I know it's natural for people to project onto others. Everyone does it, and it's normal natural behavior. We project the good and the bad. Even if you didn't use your words, think of your emotions and feelings as bouncy balls.....now...

The problem is that this person isn't someone i can avoid, even if I blocked that person on facebook. That individual lives with my boyfriend and run ins with them are often. That's why I've been avoiding going over there. If I block that person, they will notice and ask what's wrong and quite...

I had a really rough day at work. All my experiments were having issues that were beyond my control. Then was fortunate enough to be able to call it a day at a reasonable enough hour to go exercise after work. Instead I locked myself out of my car and ended up waiting an hour for AAA come let...

WillyKat, I already actively try to reduce my electronic footprint, but it's always nice to have a reminder every once in a while. Thank you :) As for the new apartment, it didn't follow through. The place got scooped up by somebody else, and I'm just going to have to wait for another good one...

Sing your heart out, Olivia! After taking your advice, I now sing "i'm so pretty" from west side story everytime I start to feel anxious or hypervigilant. You can get through this. Just keep your chin up, stay strong and don't forget to breathe! My heart goes out to you. Keep us posted. We're...