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@MyWillow may be right regarding the possible digging up of a past issue (s). I went to therapy with seemingly nothing out of the ordinary from my past but had a problem that I didn't do well with. I am. It saying that your situation stems from your childhood but it is probably something that...

After my appointment this week with my T, I have a new way to try to think about my dissociative episodes and maybe it will help. I can often tell a moment before it will come on but can't seem to break the cycle and be able to stop it. My T encouraged me to try to recognize the usefulness of...

Doesn't sound crazy at all. I could have mostly written this post. I don't tend to think about next move but do check out until it is over.

Had checkin today about current meds. and was asked dissociative episodes. Apparently- there is concern about the frequency and intensity I experience. Seems strange to me cause I don't think it should be concerning.

Thank you - feels really validating to imagine I am not the only one to make so many poor choices.

I used to get into the rush. I would end up dressing very risqué- drinking plenty and "acting innocent" when that was far from the truth. I asked for it and have done a terrible disservice to all women. I disrespected myself, my body, and I didn't care. I was mean- I put myself in horrible...

Not sure if I am getting worse in my ability to deal and maybe I have just overthought things too much. I had a rough time this weekend. I am not trying to complain and I am sorry if this comes across the wrong way. Even though I have a colorful past- fortunately it has not really affected my...

New thought -as with most things, communicating loudly or softly is probably mostly attributable to our upbringings (especially the early years).

The way I see it is diets don't just work and therapy doesn't just work - in both cases it can guide a direction. Yes diets may bring an awareness to what one eats and therapy may bring an awareness to our actions and/or emotions. Ultimately, it is the person to "do" the work and therapists can...

I seem to do the opposite. I talk softly especially when trying to express myself. I think it is because I don't have confidence that what I say matters. I am very insecure to show people who I am emotionally. I would expect the opposite to be true too- maybe some talk in aloud voice to appear...

@Simply Simon Thank you! Very inspirational on Saturday many level. I had an extremely hard day and I am going think though my best choices.

Enjoy. And be safe. Historically, in some belief systems this is an excellent time to meditate on peace and harmony for all. This is a powerful event. I expect to experience it with deep gratitude and respect for all we have.

This sounds likely... wow thank you. I think I had been fooling myself for awhile thinking that I usually only checked out during difficult conversations in therapy. I was scared last weekend, partly because of the duration and my complete surprise to find myself in the ocean. I hadn't thought I...

Sorry but that sucks... I want some rhyme or reason. It can get to be too much to handle - which is proabably where the dissociation comes in.

Is it related to everything then getting worse? Ok days then days that I want to crawl in a hole and die days. So annoying - on one hand, ok feeling ok and everything is going to work out and then my entire world flips upside down. I am trying hard and feel miserable.

Trying to sort out what happened. I was away for the weekend and we had a family trip to the beach. I was walking along the beach and at some point I lost myself. I was done swimming and basically all dried off. I know plenty of time went by and I "came back" to me swimming in the ocean. And I...

I did yoga today - start taking a gentle yoga class a few weeks ago. I am learning to breathe and I think it does help ground me and helps me sleep better in the night.

Not sure I have much to share that would make a difference but thank you all for posting. I feel so new to admitting and accepting that bad things happened. I appreciate seeing these posts - I admire that many of you have so much to offer. Thank you to the OP - this thread has been a kind of...

Welcome- I think I am pretty new at this too (when in fact my ahha moment of "ok I need to deal" was a few years ago.) My two cents is is to take it at your pace. This is a journey not a great race. Initially my Therapist often remarked how my personality is "go getter" and I am used to being...

I am not sure what you would "label" it as as well but I also experienced it for nearly a year. Could be depression. For me, it didn't subside until I started taking an anti-depressant. I was on such a hyper alert/efficiency mode and was sleeping 1-2 hours a night for months. Still exists but...

@scout86, @shimmerz , @EveHarrington , @Nessa7 ,@She Cat ,@valkeasisu ,@Friday @Beemo3780 Thank you for your suggestios and thoughts. I thought it would be weeks before I had an opportunity to seriously talk with a friend but instead a unique opportunity presented. Sorry for the tangent of this...

Do you have kids?

Mostly I don't go a different way because it is usually small stuff and in the end it doesn't really matter. But I go my own way.. Say I have started to make "x" for dinner and he wants me to also make "y" and I don't then he keeps telling me how that is what he wants. I can tell he is...

Vulnerable... your response went really deep and not sure I could face to face be that blunt... and not sure how to take it...scared to the core of the conversation, where it could lead, and to hear someone say aloud what they really think sounds so embarrassing and humiliating. I had no idea...

Thank you for your response. I think what I meant was it sounds worse than it is. I do struggle with what healthy may look like because of my childhood but it is so much better than what I experienced so not so sure. It is not abusive.