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When I was a kid I had a bad dream. I woke up in the middle of the night, went to my parent's room and told them my hands felt big. What I meant (I was 8 years old) was that my hands felt numb. Yeah, my hands disappear. They "Felt like two balloons" Pink Floyd.

Anxiety stopped me from getting an MBA 3 times, a degree in psychology twice and kept me from seeking new employment for the last 4 years of not doing what I wanted. I just started a new degree program. I think I can do it this time. The anxiety is still there, but I have really found recover...

Still, you don't deserve to be ignored. If they feel your diagnosis is unfounded they should call and let you know. It's not right to be kept in the dark.

Yup, me too. I hate anxiety. It's hit me today like a tone of bricks. But I've been through this over and over. I like what @hodge says: I am fine, I drop into despair, and then I'm fine again. It's a cycle. I'm kind of used to it. I blame the flashbacks, and the situations that made me...

I decided a few days ago that I needed to let go of my ex. I quickly realized that there are several people like her who I need to let go of. Each of these apply in one way or another. Me too. Thanks for posting this.

The last therapist I fired was because he was more allied with his training than with me. I was looking for someone who would listen and try to understand. He was looking for someone who would fit the mold. I don't fit molds well. Not all therapists are the same. There are the 10% who are...

I have relieved my little ones of duty. They go into retirement. They were never meant to do the job they were forced to do anyway. I take them on car rides, go for walks with them, and let them be the little ones they should have been allowed to be in the first place.

I've gone through a lot of cycles between feeling like you do (ugh!) and feeling pretty normal. Flashbacks are awful. I used to wish them on other people, but of course that's pretty mean. Today I got hit pretty hard. I was angry at everyone, especially with a few people in authority. It took...

I find that interesting too. I have had to justify, really almost defend, the truth of my experience to my therapist over and over. I don't think she was questioning the experience, when she would word things like that. She just wanted me to be clear. And oh, so unclear I was for years...

I'm on the flip side of your post. Last year I went through a short relationship that I hoped would get serious. I thought I had recovered enough to not withdraw when there was confrontation or disagreement. She tried to relate to me and be understanding, but at some point she turned away. I...

That's tricky. I've lost several relationships due to a lack of affectation. I start off okay, but at a certain point something triggers me and everything goes emotionless (or overly emotional and totally focused on some past trauma). It didn't work for me to fake it. My marriage counselled...

Everyone is a little off. I have discovered that at work. I don't feel so bad about PTSD symptoms imposing themselves into my life when I can admit that "normal" people have there tics and glitches too. I don't tell anyone at work about my PTSD because of the stigma, and also because it really...

I had a group of therapists who induced a totally unverifiable memory to come up. It doesn't matter. I had to treat it as if it were real. I now understand the therapy as a traumatic incident. It was awful. It made he later on refuse to do EMDR or trust therapists in general. I have...

I have one no longer repressed memory that has been totally unverifiable. It was caused by theapists with an agenda. But that doesn't mean it isn't real. It affects me as if it is real. In therapy I have had to treat it as if it is real, even if it is not. I have had other totally verifiable...

Sometimes any interaction is good interaction. I like the image of someone handing you color pencils. I agree with Chava. You have to start somewhere. For me that start took a long time to find, was very basic, and took a long time to get beyond.

I've had the same therapist for 5 years, and she has been with me through the hardest parts of my recovery. Now I'm moving out of the area and won't be able to see her. I don't know if I want to go through the effort of trying to hunt for and break in a new therapist. Finding a good one is...

I'm really good at hiding the symptoms of PTSD, so everyone thinks I'm fine when I'm not. I have a 5 year relationship with a therapist who saw me struggle with the worst of it, and I think she's the only one in my life who really understands. My ex wife goes to a city mental health...

I get to move in a few months, and I get to go onn interviews. After a lot of recovery I think I'm ready. But it's been a long recovery. I have left jobs because I couldn't interview for better positions at the same company. It's awful to be stuck like that. I hate it when life goes on and I...

I can stop regardless of the triggers...now. I used to take mental health days, or quit jobs entirely due to triggers. I didn't have any choice. But after years of effort and lots of therapy, the triggers are not debilitating any more. Some don't even exist. It's like I'm a new person. But...

There are a lot of times I have just been exhausted. I was emotionally, physically and mentally done. It didn't last for ever, but I have often hated myself thinking that it would. Sometimes when I got to that place I'd tell my therapist I don't want to do it any more. Sometimes I'd do like...

I went through the same thing. My therapist was a little skeptical at first, but I was very sure about what I was experiencing, and I stood up for myself. I have several of these protectors. They are each linked to specific traumas. I have come to understand that these are not another...

When I first started dealing with PTSD I was in the Marines. It was not combat PTSD, from both adulthood and childhood. I was a mess. I lost my security clearance because of my behavior, not because of what I did for my recovery. I look back and think it would have been really good to find a...

I'm a pretty smart guy. I have been really confused the walls I hit. I have always thought I could think my way past the walls. Well, I now see that thinking fast and hard doesn't move mountains. This is what I am coming to understand. My thinking gets ahead of my feelings. When that...

When I took Buspar it made me at times dizzy when I turned my head too fast or in the wrong way. I told my prescriber and she was concerned I might have other problems causing the dizziness, but I think it was a simple side effect. When I stopped the medication it took 6 months for that...

I used to take "mental health" days. It helped sometimes. Medication helped me get up and get through the day, but most doctors hesitate to prescribe what really helped the most, so I had to find other ways of dealing. My therapist did a lot to get me through the flashbacks. For a while every...