Emotions Dead... Want Hints On How Not To Push My Partner Away?

[chibmonster]

I know i haven't posted in awhile, ive been getting medical stuff together and just haven't been up to it. Emotions are still very gone and its the worst, no sexual drive what so ever yay effects of sexual assault. Crappy part is my relationship is on the rocks. my Partner he isn't the most emotional person to the point he cant understand why i need a shoulder to cry on. but that was why we worked before i was all emotion blunt in your face everyone could relate emotion. The way he showed he cared was he was their and through sex, so he really wants sex and i cant give it unless its unemotional and i cry after. Well now that my emotions are gone are stupid and gone its hard to keep up are relationship especially with him gone doing work all the time. Im looking to meet him some way he knows the situation and everything that goes with it we have grate communication, but as he has said "he knows the relationship can make it but he doesn't know how long we can" and i might not have emotions but he dose and its hitting him hard and he has been the reason i have gotten through this. I need some hope that their is a light at the end of this tunnel and some tips to help. I am seeing a new Therapist tomorrow but that is only a start. i need lil things to help keep thing ok for now till then cuz what im doing is not working. i don't want to loose my 10 yr relationship to my best-friend and the person i know i still love.-chibi

 

[Intrepid]

That's tricky. I've lost several relationships due to a lack of affectation. I start off okay, but at a certain point something triggers me and everything goes emotionless (or overly emotional and totally focused on some past trauma). It didn't work for me to fake it.

My marriage counselled basically said that I should put my therapy first, and let the relationships come when I was healthy. That turned out to be the way things would be whether I liked it or not. The divorce came 2 years later no matter how hard I tried to save it. I still feel a lot of grief around that, but looking back I don't know how it could have turned out differently.