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I have also hurt myself in very bad ways so if there are ways I can offer support just let me know. It's hard to talk about that stuff but knowing people are out there is helpful.

I get this too. I see it very plainly in my life. I have OCD as well as PTSD so my life is all about right or wrong and black and white, but I also have that moral compass that is related to right or wrong where I NEED to do the "right " thing. That's why its so important for me to learn what...

I just don't want you to kill yourself over this bastard. Whatever you think he has over you thats fine. I won't try and force my self defense explanation on you since I know that's not what you are looking at right now. I want you to focus on what you can live for and what he can't take away...

I grew up in an abusive household from the get go. I know that now. I have always blamed myself for the inadequacies of my life no matter how small. I have always explained my existence as something tainted. I had no other reason to explain why so much evil took place in my life so early on...

I have been so overwhelmed lately due to many things...life in general, and the loss of my dog. I asked my therapist why I am not feeling better at all and all I think about is dying every day. I have been so frustrated with therapy and going on with life. My therapist told me that they were the...

Wow, I can't seem to get over my dog being gone. It may sound trivial, but since I was a kid I haven't had relationships with people. I have been alone my entire life except with my dog. All I've wanted to do for the last few weeks is kill myself so I could be with her. I see her everywhere in...

Wow...you sound exactly like me! I just got a job stocking shelves. I haven't had a job in a long time for fear of being around people. It's been difficult despite the fact I am alone stocking. I still have to interact in a small way, but it is intense in my mind. All I think of is when I will...

I get it too. I can see how you can feel so overwhelmed. My therapist keeps telling me, "its a process". I like her a lot, but those repeated words are getting old. I know its a process but sometimes the process seems to be going backwards, you know? PTSD is a bitch. I understand that the only...

I hope you will dump her? She is obviously not a good therapist. Please tell her to go pound sand.

I am curious to see if anyone is close to being like me. I know most people who experience trauma are afraid of the outside world and have every right to be. They experience all kinds of symptoms that would make anyone want to separate themselves from others. The thing is, with me, I also have...

Yes, living alone helps me in most situations. I have a severe fear of other people due to childhood trauma. I also know I just am not good with other people in certain situations. I freeze up when I am around some people. I know there are some people that are ok in most situations.

Listen to yourself. You are stronger than him. I know I hear it. He may have some training because he was in the Marines, but that doesn't mean you can't overcome that. I was in the Marines too, but if I knew someone was as serious as you might be, I would back off. You need to be confident in...

I'm assuming he was discharged from the Marines? I was a Marine so I know the consequences of different actions that are taken in different circumstances. If he was still in, then it would be easy to get him involved with his superiors for other "issues" if you know what I mean. Obviously I...

Yes, I understand that. I have done that for so long it has become automatic almost. It's hard for me to stop myself now. I go into this zone of disconnection so easily now...at the littlest trigger. It almost doesn't even require a trigger that I can put a finger on...just life activities. My...

Exactly! Thats how I feel. I don't actually see my hands in a foreign sense, just a different view. I definitely see myself in a third person though. It's odd to see yourself so far removed yet knowing you are right there. When I dissociate I get rid of all this extra crap and just work on the...

Disconnecting is the word I usually use to explain it all. That is the key to all dissociation for me. I always feel like I am disconnected, maybe not like you feel but in another way? I know it is different for everyone.

I am wondering if others have questioned their dissociation? My therapist recently asked me when I first experienced it, and I tried to remember back to the first time I ever slipped away to that peaceful place away from all the danger I was in. I know I was young, but I couldn't give her an...

The only thing I can say is to relate back what people said to me recently...my dog just died last month and she was 15. Most large dogs don't live that long. She was a shephard mix with many hip issues. It made me feel like a better pet owner after hearing people's replies when they explained...

I agree. I am sorry about your kitten. What a horrible loss. I have a cat as well and I know the love cats have to share as well. My cat is about 8 years old but we have a bond as well. I can't imagine him leaving me right now...well particularly now after Abby being gone. Cats are amazing just...

I understand that. I had a wonderful dog that I had to put to sleep recently. I think the sadness about her death has taken over my life more than anything recently. I didn't have anything except her to really talk to, and now I am alone and missing a huge piece of my life. I can't just go out...

I wonder if you could just send her that? If you could let her know what you feel in the sense of how she is responding to you. I don't know. I have such a hard time setting boundaries with anyone so I shouldn't be telling anyone anything, but I just thought that might sound good. I'm not...

Hi, I've heard that from so many people and I'm so happy for you and those other people. I always wanted a connection like that. What do you think for those that don't have that? How do those of us that have never had that or connected like that can feel like they need to feel like can hold on...

I think that is awesome! That used to help me so much. It does help a lot. The running is amazing, releasing the needed stress and all those endorphins. I am trying to get back into it myself. I know rationally it will be the best thing for me. I tend to sabotage myself lately for some reason. I...

I think you are talking about people with PTSD building themselves up right? I just started a schedule with my therapist and we decided to add working out. I was always into the physical part of everything but I had escaped it because it reminded me of work. Lately after talking to her, I...

Ok so you work for the state? Does that cause more stress for you? I can imagine it must. So you give advice to the state for referrals? Do you think that's wise in your own state of mind if you are already feeling this way? I'm just saying from my own experience in the state system that I...