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What a f'ing ripper idea for a thread! (Ripper is Australian for awesome btw). Dear Middle Class, Privileged Colleagues, Because you have sat through a 40 minute professional learning about trauma does NOT mean you f'ing understand trauma deeply and its impacts. In fact, even good f'ing...

@Friday , yes, it really is in so many ways kind of a healing process, being a mother and being able to love and protect your child in a way you never were. My grandfather who was abusive also recently died so I think that has acted as a trigger recently for memories coming back to me. But I...

@Sideways , No, not a tangent at all. It's very helpful actually, and quite similar in ways to my experience on this topic. I too behave in a different way to how I necessarily feel and I do think that helps to change the narrative. I think the biggest challenge for me is when I'm going...

The feelings my parents generally displayed towards me was a type of hatred and a disgust. It was unfortunately both my mother and my father. And then just for a bit of extra abuse, my mother used to semi-regularly deliver me to my grandfather (her father). It is hard coming to terms with the...

I really struggle with believing in myself, liking myself and feeling worthy. It's difficult because through all the therapy I know logically that none of my abusive childhood was my fault. I can logically see that my parents were the bad ones, but there seems to be a big difference between...

I have my husband and 10 year old son that I live with. My husband is great. I do have a therapist also, I have an online appointment with him today. I moved away from where I grew up for obvious reasons and now live 300km give or take from where I saw my original therapist, but that is one...

Yes, unfortunately they are still alive, living a good life. Life is unfair in that way, the good people tend to die young and the people like my parents live a long life. Unfortunately for me I was the only girl, with two older brothers and it was the girl they didn't want. My mother saw me...

Today I had a new flashback. I was 10 and my abusive parents that always displayed hatred of me were discussing how they wanted to move to our new house without me. In front of me, they were discussing how they could kill me. They planned to drown me in an outdoor pool and pretend like it was...

This is an interesting one and I'm glad you created it! I've never experienced a cult but my primary abuser was catholic supposedly. For this and other personal beliefs, I'm atheist. Personally, I find that religion is used in the world to justify so much evil that it is ridiculous. I will...

Thanks so much. Although it was such a hard decision, I think it was the right one. It's been so nice the last couple of days not stressing about when I have to push myself to go back to work. I'm glad your body is doing better and you're able to get a bit more out of life, even if covid has...

After having my my complex ptsd come back at me hugely with frequent new flashbacks in the middle of 2020, I have been trying to 'soldier on'. The amount of stress has been putting pressure on my body and I have been suffering health issues constantly. After an operation at the beginning of...

Stressed, sad, angry, confused. When memories are bubbling under the surface with my DID what happens is I feel all the emotions first. It can be days, weeks of emotions building, feeling more erratic and I search and search my brain and can't access the cause and then suddenly memories will...

I have been in therapy on and off for over a decade now. It definitely helps over time, even though it's such hard work. My parts work together a lot better than they once ever did and when/if new parts emerge then the process of getting them to feel validated and cooperate seems to be much...

It is very hard, @mylunareclipse you are not alone. It makes sense though that there will be parts of you that are really worried about your relationship with your therapist. You have to get close to a therapist and trust them for the whole process to work, and for people like us that kind...

Ooo, love Daft Punk too. Get to go watch my 9 year old sing a couple of solos in his school choir today and get an end of year award today. Going to be a proud Mama kind of day, which I need with my physical health getting me down of late. Although will have to dope myself up lots to sit...

Back in hospital tonight. 4th time in 3 months due to severe endometriosis pain. Very nice doctors and nurses but I am so over it all.

That sounds tough, so sorry it's so hard for you at the moment. It's hard when you need extra support and your T isn't available. I mostly see my T weekly but I find there are some times when I'm travelling poorly that I need to talk to someone more immediately before our scheduled...

Anzac biscuits are made with rolled outs, coconut, flour and lots of yummy golden syrup. It depends on how you make them and your taste as to whether they are crunchy or chewy in the middle. I personally love them chewy in the middle.... mmmmm. My hubby and son go mad for them when I make...

Mmm... sweet treats makes me think about all the yummy goodies with Christmas just around the corner. Our traditional Christmas goodie is homemade rocky road. Mmmmm.... Will be having a good ol' shrimp on the barbie for Christmas in the Land Down Under. 😃 Where are you @Changing4Best ? I...

No, I don't @Rani G . I have just started taking Provera, but I just Googled Zafrilla and it sounds like it could be worth a try. Might have to ask my doc about it. Thanks very much.

I totally agree. I think the prison a tortured mind creates is much worse than physical imprisonment. You can never escape your own mind. I am doing ok today. I have had a few horrible nights this week where suicidal thoughts plagued me. For me these thoughts are unfortunately a sort of...

Thank you @Strangelongtrip . I am glad you have found something that works for you. I have just started on another new form of birth control to see if that helps. Kind of rotating through different things to see if any works and waiting on a specialist appointment. It's nice to know that...

I think DID is such a hard diagnosis to come to terms with. For the most part I have accepted my diagnosis but even now ten years on there are times when I want to pretend it doesn't exist. It's a slow process, accepting it. Be kind to yourself. If you are recognising it at all and trying to...

My T shared a quote a me in relation to dissociative identity - "Unsafe behaviours are a profound outcry against isolation and the terrible, even catastrophic, experience of utter aloneness in their suffering". It is not the only reason for self harm and suicidal thoughts of course, but it was...

I have been suffering badly from endometriosis lately. 3 hospitalisations in 3 months from huge pelvic pain. I read a study recently that said women who were abused as children were something crazy like 75% more likely to have endometriosis. At the moment it is making my mental health so...