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Thanks for this. It seems it might be helpful to me in working with inner child feelings (a concept new to me) that I posted about a few days ago. It all sounds a bit hard to relate to and conceptualise, but I'm prepared to try anything in my attempts to feel better.

Thanks to everybody who (very bravely in my opinion) shared their thoughts and experiences about this. Reading the posts has been a moving and powerful experience and I am happy to admit I have been in tears at times. I've read and re-read them all, over and over. You are all such a brave...

I watch and listen to live music performances on you tube. I love John Butler trio at the moment. Or play my vinyl. On winter nights on my home from work I often park up at a remote spot over looking the sea. I lay across the back seats and listen to the elements and if it's clear gaze at the...

During a recent period of intense anxiety, which lasted a weekend, I left my family and went for a walk alone. I was struggling with feelings of terror and sadness and felt close to breaking down. I thought a walk and fresh air might help me calm down. During the walk I repeatedly broke down...

I had to represent my employer in court last week. I haven't done this for years. I was getting debilitating anxiety attacks the week prior to going which I guess we're connected to travelling away from home for a few days and giving evidence. On the day I was mildly anxious, but once in the...

Perhaps now he has passed away the truth will come out, as was the case with Jimmy Saville. If there is truth in the rumours, I can only feel great sadness for the victims, and wonder how they are feeling at this time. If he had abused, and allegations were ignored because of who he was, it...

@Anrish That sounds like a lovely normal reassuring thing to do. I hope you do it again, and again. It's a really big thing so far as I am concerned, the sort of thing I would love to do again some day. Well done and very best wishes. mit

I've been having serious thoughts about suicide for a few years (and one actual attempt). I've planned where and how, written letters to explain why..... Over Christmas I became convinced I had to go through with it. I can't explain why I thought this, I felt as though something awful was...

I cut and paste the article titles into google and found the articles in the guardian on-line.

Hi @Anarchy. Thanks for the hugs, likewise to you, with gusto! I have read the above posts contained in the above thread, as you would expect I can absolutely relate to how you feel. I wish male circumcision was viewed as offensive as female genital mutilation. The fact that it is still an...

I'm a bit late to this discussion - but I don't believe Children can ever intrinsically know anything (e.g. right from wrong) without external influences, perhaps the question should be 'do children know the difference between good and bad touch without it being explicitly explained by their...

Just to warn you @Anarchy I do refer to a scene depicting circumcision below: My source of trauma was surgery on my genitals throughout my childhood, so although the majority of it wasn't sexual abuse (there were a couple of very questionable 'procedures') my psychosis is that I interpreted and...

Hi Luke - I was touched by your bravery and honesty. I can only support what @Justmehere said about getting help from a therapist, I am sure that would be the best thing to do. As you are at College there may be some pastoral help available, even if they can just direct you to competent...

Hi @Suzetig I've been following this discussion with interest. I'm so glad you were able to talk to your therapist about this, and feel safe doing so. I feel relationships need to be based on equality, and this is even more important in a physical relationship. The age divide between you and...

Hey @Notsowild I've suffered from depression for a number of years, my diagnoses for complex trauma (whatever that means) is only relatively recent. I am sure in my case the two are linked, but it's impossible to know for sure (would I suffer from depression had I not experienced trauma as a...

I know I am replying to an older thread, I read it soon after I joined the forum but didn't feel confident at the time to contribute. But I just wanted to say thank you @Recovery4Me for the giving voice to this source of trauma and the hope conveyed, that it is possible to heal. I have...

Hi @Simply Simon Like @Nam I was adopted age 5. My trauma arose from childhood medical problems, and the intensely intimate care that resulted at the hands of the medics and my adoptive parents throughout my childhood. My adoptive parents were kind and well intentioned, but didn't recognise my...

@KP the nut @Anarchy thank you both for your help. I've decided to go ahead. The therapist I spoke to on the phone was very nice to talk to, and seemed to understand more than I had expected. She has since written to me asking for more information prior to completing an assessment over the...

Thanks for all the advice and thoughts. The collective wisdom is to try it, so that's what I'll do. Thanks again.

I've self referred for counselling/therapy in the UK through a local NHS service. I did this because anxiety and panic attacks have in recent months become much more intense, more frequent and longer lasting. At times I feel so frightened all I can think about is suicide to escape the terror...

Hi @Lucycat. I hope my post didnt upset you. maybe it wasnt the best place to make my comment. Im sorry if it did.

Somewhat at a tangent to this...or opposite I guess. In preparation for the innumerable hospital stays throughout my childhood my parents always bought me new pyjamas, or on the occasion when I ended up in hospital a short notice I would have to borrow some from the ward. I soon began to...

Again, Panic attack, Leave me alone, All I want is; Peace.

This is no way to treat you, and it won't be helping him either I guess. Sadly I can relate to the type of behaviour you describe, as I have acted like that at times towards my partner, much to my shame. I know at times when I behaved like that I was filled with rage and just directed it at...

Thanks @RussH I've self referred for counselling through the UK NHS service, just have to wait and see what happens, but obviously I hope they agree that I would benefit from therapy of some kind.