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My whole life I've always had my parts whether I knew about them or not. They are who I'm made up of. Sometimes they might feel like a lot to handle but their my family. That being said, due to the highest level part, the rest 15+ have gone away and are hiding. The highest we call "Evil" has...

The problem is, all but two parts have been distant like they left me, all alone. The other two parts fuel the desire to go away, forever. Lately, when I feel extremely low my one thing - the effect it will have on my kid seemingly fades and it's very scary when it happens. I don't know who I am...

My system contains 15+ parts who are all very different. That being said, I have at least one part who is the leader and is the one whose been telling us it's time to go followed by the detailed method that spins in our head over and over. My life feels upside down. A failing marriage of ,23...

Lately I've done a lot of thinking about my past and current life and sadly they are similar. As a child I was subjected to emotional, physical and sexual abuse. On the outside, we had the normal looking family but on the inside it was unpredictable, filled with anger, blamed for things I did...

It's a hard one to come out of and then be expected to have conversations and interactions. We tend to be very irritated too

That too happens to us, especially in public.

My answer is: I absolutely hate this but (we) DID system are certain bugs are on us. It's the worst feeling, it consumes our life and everything we do and end up not doing. We search the Internet hoping to find a valid reason but we never find one. We've gone to the doctor and nothing was found...

I'm always in this "is it true or is it just my parts and I experiencing anxiety and depression." Sadly most days I feel like things are crawling on me or something is on my eye lashes. It could be anxiety since I spend my whole life in anxiety mode but could there actually be something there...

Your lucky is all I can say

I'm aware of mouth breathers but I account that they may not realize it and that has to be ok. I hope you know that I'm not perfect and I'm sure I do things other people think are annoying but I know it's my PTSD symptoms and I have to figure out how to manage them and not be irritated with...

I agree If people know, they know, dont think that's you or that you should feel guilty.- well said because unless you experience it, I don't think anyone would understand. I'm drained, have no patience and no desire to try because I have nothing to give. That is everyone besides my daughter...

I do not do well spending a lot of time with one person, especially when I don't have a car to get breaks. That being said, I just spent the weekend with my mother while dog sitting at my brother's house. All weekend I heard her talk about him and how great he is and everything he does well. Any...

I think everyone has their own definition of what they call "home." My definition of home is safe, a place where you can be yourself but it comes with a lot of responsibilities. My point, I dislike our apartment neighbors for many valid reasons. I'm trying to deal with it with the noise from...

Some days I feel like my senses are hyper sensitive. My ability to hear things is overwhelming and my ears feel different. At this point everything becomes annoying, even talking with people holding basic conversations. I hear the mouth breathers, the spoon scraping against a soup bowl, chewing...

Hallucinating can be a symptom of depression with psychotic features. It's stolen my life and one of most isolating and lonely thing to have

I feel like I've tried many different "techniques" and some would work for a bit but then the information is lost. Guilt. I feel like we're programmed to feel guilty for everything we do. Clearly that mindset overall holds us back. Lots of feelings lately but thank you for your encouraging and...

I appreciate your honesty and I'm saying that in a nice way. It makes me sad knowing people don't understand it and big shout out to the cinema industry for portraying us as dangerous and violent. I don't have days off and I'm not talking about work. My head is full time/the parts are not...

To anyone feeling the same, know your not alone. I exist for other people's gain. I try speak up knowing what the aftermath will bring. Recently I shared concerns with my husband about getting a dog, it's not a good idea (x,y,z) and yet he went ahead and got one. He didn't listen to us (I have...

Tough weekend. Anything and everything made me and my parts cry. We couldn't get out of each other's way. Our day to day schedule has changed since getting a puppy. We (parts) weren't ready and expressed that to my husband a few times and he didn't listen. Puppies=chaos and we were already...

Thank you. I have to remind us we have each other and this platform.

I agree. I long to have a best friend who can lean on me on hard times and I can as well. My friend knows I suffer from mental health issues like DID and still accepts us. A friend we could hang out with and laugh. I'm afraid no one out there has the patience to be at us. We're inconsistent and...

Curious if anyone else has severe anxiety with psychosis episodes? I've had this going on two years and it's hell.

I don't have any friends anymore. In my family, no one really likes each other and they feel like strangers. We (DID) used to be best friends with our twin sister, and it felt natural. Fast forward to today: Having friends felt like an obligation, in addition to my home life. plus confusing...

We (alters) seem to be spinning in circles regarding our traumas. at the same time trying to do daily tasks. These are occuring at the same time. We hear things, we are certain we see bugs but no one has proven anything is there and smell terrible things. Then we have to deal with the real world...

Maybe don't comment if this makes you seemingly mad therefore you lash out. Kind words are more motivating.