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So the background - started to go on NHS therapy -cbt
The root: my stepdad sexually done stuffs with me - manipulated to make me think it's normal
From my age 7 until 18years old when he tried again manipulate me...
Nowadays I'm thinking a lots of time when I get angry - I want to fly back and...
Sorry to ask that... But are you 100% sure her denial is the truth?
My guess she can be scared... Or because of the action ... To you wouldn't see you granddaughter made her say she lied...
In a bigger picture for her you are the only ally and protection.
And if after these happenings because...
It's true analyse him that way.,,
Who does that kind of action towards anyone HAVE to be LABELED!!! That's problem even if it's seems like that is not just yours - it's anyone problem can be and can become who ever will contact towards a pedophile- especially kids.
You don't take near your...
Ehhh
Continue ...
The Dostoyevsky
" when he have no respect for others, he can no more love, and in him yields to his inpulses, indulges in the lowest form of pleasure, and behaves in the end like an animal in satisfying his own vices.and it all comes from lying to others and to yourself."
Hi...
My personal experience on that
Did confront mine abuser.,, if you had been abused sexually by that kind of worms(which is way to cute compare to a pedophile) they will try and do manipulate you as how they did on the time...
Mine told me to it was me who came to him and do staff... - my...
I'm not sure how you are guys ...
So that's sounds a bit weird but I would say normal triggers I'm quite fine with them - recognisable and it's okay, bit feel after sad or afraid, but I can handle them because that's comes back as a memory or words what I remember...
Emotional one is have a...
To illusionist
There are books which says the short term memory will changes up with long term.
The MRI in traumatic event makes your brain looks different from who hasn't had any childhood trauma.
Lots of place say it you will be just how you were before.. Helps nothing. I was flipping...
A few questions...
Do you really can't do it alone? I mean if you just have counciling ?
Why you can't do it alone?
And always thinking of what's wrong in me which need to be cleared out and repaired...
I got that you been brain washed which effects on me... Can you brain wash your own...
No I don't know how to communicate
A lots of time I think he attacks me, when he just try to help and a lots of time I can't describe my things .... And struggle to tell what is inside - can't put in words or don't have courage for it...
So the problem I think is more me because I don't get...
Thanks... Sorted out my letter box... Sorry
Quite understandable he is fed up to listening my negative self talk and the "I don't know nothing" ....
What does it mean if someone support you? He says he did and does...
Does the support means what the receiver needs? Or does it means what the...
So I read a lot ... Maybe too much about PTSD ... My head is overwhelmed... Which just make on myself a harder critic.
So okay we have dissociation, negative thoughts ... And so on and so on...
I'm not even get it if I'm talking negative!!! Or if I recognise it to I'm talking to myself...
That's just so bad - that bad impersonal non-empathic shit who you had meet. Experience..., he is just fatal stupid with zero empathy - selfish f"'er...
Okay so about the opinion usually how I recognised personally I get triggered when you forced into situation when you wouldn't be,.. Especially...
So I had quite a massive almost a year (intense 11 month) and had new and old flashbacks .... Like in that period the first time I had a body memory flashback, when I have the body sensation but no any picture or happening memory... You know when you know what you feel like the air or smell...
So the story is quite long - I would summit up quite shortly what's happened.
So we start at my parents divorce. My mum wanted to divorce, but she is a person who hates to hurt anyone. So she had a psychological storm inside her - she had suicidal thoughts because of what she did with my dad(...
Hmmmm... That's a difficult one... How I saw there isn't a quick solution, becaus there isn't.
With me never helps the same thing.
Sometimes helps to write out my feelings and analyse it- why I don't do nothing? Why I'm just thinking to do something but I'm not doing in the reality?
How I see...
No I'm not in therapy because I can't afford and I try to get threw nhs therapy but they didn't take me serious - even on December I was I. Asylum for a night.
I lost the trust in psycho therapy because they didn't have any responsibility and they had the attitude "anyway she hates herself...
Hmmmm... A lots of things are changed around me...
So I would say quite the beginingish - I wrote a letter to my dad where I say what's happened with me when I was kid (my stepdad raped me who knows how many time 6-16years old between..)
First reaction of him was positive, but he didn't even...
Sorry to say that... I'm a sufferer and I do have a support as my partner - I do give him a lots of time hell, but he every each time he gives me back. If I'm attacking him unnecessarily then he will take me a part psychological way... He let me settle and after for example watch a movie which...