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I had looping flashbacks, the kind where you believe it's all happening again, all of my mind and body was overtaken, over and over from about 2:30 PM until Midnight. The ambulance got me around 8 PM. The hospital first put me in this suicide proof room, which was annoying, then they had to move...

Thanks. I have been here before, not being up to parenting but doing it anyway. I love my son, so I'm always there for him but d*mn if I don't have less to give some days. He has so many needs, and he's in a bad mood today, throwing fits over every little thing. I might just hide in the tub.

Ugh! I am sick and I can't be a parent today. I mean, I have to be a parent but it's really hard, plus I just had a flashback, which makes me feel like crap. My family is just frustrating and my mom is out of town so I don't have to avoid her. I'm worried that my new therapist doesn't like...

@JEKBreatheandBelieve I cried reading your post (and btw I never cry). It is so hard to lose a loved and cherished friend and cats are certainly loved and cherished to many people. Allow yourself to grieve for sure! It's hard. The pain never goes away but it gets easier to deal with it. Get...

I do this. I isolate myself. In social situations, like gatherings at my son's school, I sit there saying nothing and trying to be invisible. I don't trust people and I'm also worried that if I do say something I'll sound stupid or crazy. You are NOT alone in this at all.

I'm not sure if this is the correct forum for this post, but I couldn't find anywhere else to put it. My 13 year old son has been having problems with a kid at school who is 15. This kid has been calling him names, telling him he's shaped like an egg and calling him egg, punching him in the...

Thanks @WishfulThinking123. Hearing that is reassuring. How do you go about meeting people? I'm on disability, and the majority of my time is spent with my son, or, when I feel well enough, volunteering at his school. I have two people I make small talk with there, but don't consider them to...

I've been worried about posting here, lately. I'm worried that no one here likes me, or that I'm too dramatic for people. I'm also worried that I have been annoying my new therapist, and that she's going to dislike me, as well. I suppose this has been a theme in my life. I have no friends...

So, I have this thing where I don't feel like my body is mine, but recently, I've noticed, that not only do I not think my body is mine, but I ignore all of it's cues. I don't go to the bathroom when I have to, and when I do it takes me a couple of minutes to connect enough to be able to go. I...

OMG Thank you! I've been so worried about this.

I've been wondering about why I have times where I believe I'm a child again, and I cannot remember what happens while I believe that. I answer to my name, so I don't think I'm a child with another name, like another personality. It happens when I have a flashback or really intense body...

YES! Block her number!

Wow, this diary post from 2014 is pretty intense! I don't even remember writing it, but reading it was for sure triggering. I'm not even sure where to go from there!

Thank you so much, @digger !

I have no emotion. I understand that. I guess I do feel some emotion, but no anger, no sadness. I don't cry.

Link Removed Does this mean that when I believe I'm five again and I have all the memories of my past, yet know my name, is partial DID? I thought this was a kind of flashback.

What flavor? LOL

What? This just reaffirms your choice to find someone else. She shouldn't be texting you about it, and it shows unhealthy boundaries. My new therapist does this as well. She gives me gum or mints when I am freaking out.

My therapist was telling me the other day, to remember that it's not happening now. For some reason, this grounding statement makes me feel invalidated, like she doesn't understand how much these body memories are disturbing to me. It's like I'm not having these horrid experiences because it...

I have forgotten the majority of things I post here! I go back and read them and have no memory of asking the questions!

I'd like to ask you another question. Do you remember these experiences? I do not. My therapist tells me about it and I have missing time.

I can't remember details of flashbacks pretty often. I can remember a general feeling that I get with all flashbacks, but the details escape me.

That's good feedback, to not try and push it too fast. I've been pushing lately.

I have hidden while in therapy after flashbacks. I just feel like a child and that seems like the most logical thing to do.

@blackemerald1 My best places are my car, my home and my bed, as well!