What is this?!

[trying2movefwd]

I am remembering more details about flash backs. Also something very weird. A couple of the flashbacks that happened. I was fully aware of them immediately after they happened. Now I know they happened but can't remember any details! Where did they go? Why did they disappear? If they happen again will it feel like brand new information? Anybody else ever experience this? Is it some kind of dissociation?!

 

[white hyacinth]

I thought I was the only one who got this! I've had quite a few times where I couldn't remember a flashback immediately after it happened. You know you had a flashback but you don't remember anything that happened in it, pretty much exactly how you described it. Almost like it never happened. It's one of the weirdest feelings ever. It must be related to dissociation somehow. It's like your brain gives you back this memory, but then it's like "sike" and dissociates from it completely. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

[MyWillow]

I’ve had several in session with no memory at all. Just dissociate and finally re-orient feeling panicked and terrified and like I’ve been hit by a truck. It’s very distressing.

 

[AliciaEff]

Same here!! It happens with nightmares for me as well. I wake up in a panic and can’t remember any details about the nightmare. Sometimes I’ve had nightmares that wake me and I forget about them until later in the day when something triggers a flashback to the nightmare. Then I remember the nightmare. So weird!

 

[Still Standing]

Ditto, guys. Sometimes I know where I "went" and sometimes I simply "went" but have no recall of where. I have always thought it was daydreaming. But, daydreaming does not "lose" the day dream content. All I know is that I "was gone".

 

[Harmonics]

I am remembering more details about flash backs. Also something very weird. A couple of the flas...

Yup! I get bad flashbacks where the memory is just gone afterward. I am guessing that I am not ready to deal with the info yet. Unfortunately, I know the flashbacks will return. But for my own sake, I have to trust that I will retain the information when I am ready to handle it. I learned the hard way not to attempt to remember later. I got flooded with flashbacks when I did that. Both a friend of mine who has been a long-time trauma T and my T say this is a journey to recovery. If I try to push it too fast, I will not do the work that needs to happen along the way. So I am learning to slow down and work step by step on this path that I did not want to have to travel but now choose to travel to reclaim my life.

 

[Angelwings]

Yup! I get bad flashbacks where the memory is just gone afterward. I am guessing that I am not read...

That's good feedback, to not try and push it too fast. I've been pushing lately.

 

[Angelwings]

I am remembering more details about flash backs. Also something very weird. A couple of the flas...

I can't remember details of flashbacks pretty often. I can remember a general feeling that I get with all flashbacks, but the details escape me.