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OK, I'm confused. When I read - or type, for that matter - I have the inner monologue. Sometimes when I am trying to figure out a complex coding or math problem I might almost speak the process out loud, sometimes with even my lips moving. But those are the only times really. The rest of the...

Sorry if this is the wrong place to post this sort of thing, just don't know where else to ask. To make a long story short, after therapy it was revealed to me that I had Complex PTSD (fawn type reaction) likely from being in a psychologically abusive relationship (she is not diagnosed but my...

Hi all. Been a while since I posted here. Last I posted I was in the process of leaving my relationship. I still am in that process, I guess, but I haven't returned 'home' for a long time and have been living at my aunt's place. I joined a nearby gym for the sake of forcing me to exercise, and...

Thanks @Movingforward10 I guess what triggered me leaving was an argument over money. After work one day I casually mentioned that I had gone over my personal budget for the week. My partner got quite silent and cold. When I asked what was wrong she said that if I had a budget it must mean...

I'm in the midst of breaking up with my partner of 3 years. My therapist says I pretty much have to - that the constant walking on eggshells has really made my C-PTSD grow. I know deep down my therapist (and friends I've talked to) is right. Being in this relationship is causing me harm. I...

Kind of inline with the original post, it's been hard for me, a male with a suspected narcissist female partner, to navigate the cultural expectations of being the man in the relationship - being a provider, a emotionless "rock", stoic, protective, etc - with my C-PTSD symptoms of constantly...

Thanks for the replies all. I just wanted to write that last night I left. Something happened that sparked a whole new argument about money. In a casual conversation I mentioned I had gone over my personal budget because I had been spending too much money buying lunch instead of making it at...

Thanks again @whiteraven "Maybe you don't trust what you perceive?" I feel this is true. I've never been in this kind of circumstance before, never been treated this way. But to make things worse she's a really, really good debater/arguer. It's not like we can sit down together and have an...

Thanks @whiteraven, Yes I am seeing a therapist. She diagnosed me with C-PTSD early on, which has been helpful to understand why I behave the way I do but also has made me feel a bit more stuck. One thing I struggle with with therapy is knowing if they're just being nice or accommodating with...

Thanks @Movingforward10, I will answer the questions only because it does help me think. Does she ever apologise? - Yes some times over the medium-sized incidents, but maybe only on 4 or 5 times a year. The times she does are very memorable. Was she remorseful when she threw that object in the...

I 100% agree with you, and have lost site of this perspective recently. Thank you for reminding me.

Thanks OliveJewel, I am listening to that book in audiobook form at the moment. I'm about 1/5 the way through. I don't think I've reached the part about cognitive distortions yet so I'm not exactly sure what they are. I know I can change (if/when I get out) but I feel so, so sad and guilty...

Hi. I'm pretty new here and pretty new to having the diagnosis of C-PTSD. Sorry, this is a long one. Just don't know what else to do. I'm in a dark place and feel like I can't get out. Furthermore I feel that with gaining clarity on my condition I've gained clarity on how I've hurt and am...

Hi all, recently diagnosed with C-PTSD here. I've been reading a lot about it recently and one thing that keeps coming up is the term "flashbacks". In terms of C-PTSD I'm not really sure what this means. There wasn't really an event to kick-off my C-PTSD, but really long exposure to stressful...

Yes! I definitely relate to this! For example, recently I've had friends offer help to fix a garden shed at my house, but I've turned them down. Not because I don't need the help, but because I don't want to "owe" them.

Hi all, I'm a 38yo male, newly diagnosed with C-PTSD (with the Fawning repsonse type). I've been listening to a some YouTube video and listening to the audio book "Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving" and whilst I tick almost all of the symptoms I'm not really sure how it came about...

Hi all, 38yo male here, recently diagnosed as the title says. I'm really hoping to learn more about C-PTSD. I've spent all of my adult life attempting treatments for depression. I've lost count of how many psychologists I've seen over the years, but probably at least 25. None helped, not...