Hi all.
Been a while since I posted here. Last I posted I was in the process of leaving my relationship. I still am in that process, I guess, but I haven't returned 'home' for a long time and have been living at my aunt's place. I joined a nearby gym for the sake of forcing me to exercise, and have gone to a few social events organised by my work, but have generally been taking things slow and easy (guilty pleasure - I bought myself a PS5 and have been playing a lot of video games. Don't know if this is healthy or not, but it's an excellent distraction).
However, I had a set back on Friday. There was a work event that ended with a lot of drinking at a bar. I drunk for the first time in a while. A lot. Now, I didn't say or do anything embarrassing (I hope) - I'm not worried about that - but the resulting depression and 'shame' over the next few days was really, really hard. I slept for close to 48hrs straight. I just felt so, so, so depressed.
I feel really guilty that I 'undid' a lot of the hard work I put into myself.
So, this is me posting here trying to be responsible and recognise the effects alcohol can have on my mental health. Note to self: when focussing on getting your mental health right DO NOT DRINK!
Been a while since I posted here. Last I posted I was in the process of leaving my relationship. I still am in that process, I guess, but I haven't returned 'home' for a long time and have been living at my aunt's place. I joined a nearby gym for the sake of forcing me to exercise, and have gone to a few social events organised by my work, but have generally been taking things slow and easy (guilty pleasure - I bought myself a PS5 and have been playing a lot of video games. Don't know if this is healthy or not, but it's an excellent distraction).
However, I had a set back on Friday. There was a work event that ended with a lot of drinking at a bar. I drunk for the first time in a while. A lot. Now, I didn't say or do anything embarrassing (I hope) - I'm not worried about that - but the resulting depression and 'shame' over the next few days was really, really hard. I slept for close to 48hrs straight. I just felt so, so, so depressed.
I feel really guilty that I 'undid' a lot of the hard work I put into myself.
So, this is me posting here trying to be responsible and recognise the effects alcohol can have on my mental health. Note to self: when focussing on getting your mental health right DO NOT DRINK!