A set back - I should not drink when focusing on getting my mental health right.

[Jlol]

Hi all.

Been a while since I posted here. Last I posted I was in the process of leaving my relationship. I still am in that process, I guess, but I haven't returned 'home' for a long time and have been living at my aunt's place. I joined a nearby gym for the sake of forcing me to exercise, and have gone to a few social events organised by my work, but have generally been taking things slow and easy (guilty pleasure - I bought myself a PS5 and have been playing a lot of video games. Don't know if this is healthy or not, but it's an excellent distraction).

However, I had a set back on Friday. There was a work event that ended with a lot of drinking at a bar. I drunk for the first time in a while. A lot. Now, I didn't say or do anything embarrassing (I hope) - I'm not worried about that - but the resulting depression and 'shame' over the next few days was really, really hard. I slept for close to 48hrs straight. I just felt so, so, so depressed.

I feel really guilty that I 'undid' a lot of the hard work I put into myself.

So, this is me posting here trying to be responsible and recognise the effects alcohol can have on my mental health. Note to self: when focussing on getting your mental health right DO NOT DRINK!

 

[Rose White]

Good job seeing it! Now an opportunity to work on self forgiveness and acceptance. You don’t have to be perfect and you haven’t undone anything. Regressions and mistakes are normal and expected.

 

[Movingforward10]

i have had set backs like drinking too. One time my. T said “but you then stopped and that was self care kicking in”. Trying to get me to shift from the ’failure’ of drinking to the ‘success’ of not carrying on drinking. Same for you. Ups and downs.

 

[caroline_13]

Hi all.

Been a while since I posted here. Last I posted I was in the process of leaving my relationship. I still am in that process, I guess, but I haven't returned 'home' for a long time and have been living at my aunt's place. I joined a nearby gym for the sake of forcing me to exercise, and have gone to a few social events organised by my work, but have generally been taking things slow and easy (guilty pleasure - I bought myself a PS5 and have been playing a lot of video games. Don't know if this is healthy or not, but it's an excellent distraction).

However, I had a set back on Friday. There was a work event that ended with a lot of drinking at a bar. I drunk for the first time in a while. A lot. Now, I didn't say or do anything embarrassing (I hope) - I'm not worried about that - but the resulting depression and 'shame' over the next few days was really, really hard. I slept for close to 48hrs straight. I just felt so, so, so depressed.

I feel really guilty that I 'undid' a lot of the hard work I put into myself.

So, this is me posting here trying to be responsible and recognise the effects alcohol can have on my mental health. Note to self: when focussing on getting your mental health right DO NOT DRINK!

I had many starts and stops on my way to sobriety.

Good things take time.

 

[Mach123]

I wished I hadn’t ever used alcohol as medicine which in retrospect was all I ever did . Unfortunately like with most people in spite of them not being able to admit it, your servant tends to become your master . Whenever anyone says if you had it to do all over not drinking is always near the top of my list . It does retard you socially though and it’s quite isolating since most social activities are more or less an excuse to drink and if you won’t drink with them they think there’s something wrong with you because, misery loves company.