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That is interesting. For me (or "For us ..."), the more I hear all the voices clearly, and the more "we" seems to be appropriate, the more happy and well-adjusted I am. It's when the parts are buried that hell breaks lose, at least for me. Acknowledging the multitude has helped me get...

I have images that come up after I wake. Sometimes they are so violent that I know for a fact that they are not true as a physical reality. The way I look at it is that these images & memories have an emotional truth to them--they represent how whatever happened long ago has been packed away...

This would be a tough & confusing experience for lots of people who don't have PTSD, so I hope you can be compassionate and understanding to yourself. As I learn to overcome my fears, I remind myself that some events will still be overwhelming. The best I can do sometimes is to let them recede...

I find that I often bring CBT skills into my EMDR sessions, and that if EMDR stirs the pot too much, the CBT skills are useful for coping with that.

I am doing it virtually. The sessions begin and end without EMDR, which helps. My therapist uses headphones & tactile "tappers". T had a spare unit to give me early on in the Covid pandemic to take home. We eased into it slowly, trying it out a little bit and seeing what my comfort level was...

My responses vary. Sometimes, I feel more peaceful. Other times, very, very tired. This week, I'm happier, but completely emotionally drained. Occasionally, we'll go too far and I'll be agitated afterward. Sometimes, the EMDR will open up intense feelings that come up both waking and in my...

That's a great sign for you both! That's a good thing for you to say the first time you see the therapist. Or, you can tell your lady this beforehand and see how it goes. You're not forcing anything--you're sharing how you feel.

My wife has asked to see my therapist in the past, and it has been helpful for her, and for me, by calming her worries and giving her a better sense of what's going on with me. On the other hand, long ago with my first wife the couples therapist we were seeing wanted to see both of us...

I have had times when my brain is saying the best thing I could do was slam full force into a brick wall. I never tried it, thank goodness. I have found it useful to reconnect with my body, and use my body, in ways that are not self-loathing. Learning simple yoga helps. Another exercise I do...

Welcome to the forum! I was diagnosed late in life in my early 50s. Although you may have the disorder for the rest of your life, healing is a real possibility. I have found this site really helpful for ideas, inspiration, and friendship.

We have been doing a lot of work towards integrating some of my parts. The parts are now coming out more in our dreams. Last night, I dreamed of disclosing to my daughter by mistake that I had a male spouse (the real Mrs. W is female). On waking, I could tell that the female parts had been...

I've done EMDR, and it's been very helpful. I haven't done CRM, but I will add some recent thoughts my therapist shared. My therapist is quite experienced at EMDR and is an EMDR consultant. In other words, T really believes in EMDR. Recently, though, T has started doing CRM and has found it...

I've had this a lot in my life. My brain is a bit scrambled, so I'm going to write down random thoughts in no order! -I need to forgive myself for not asking for help. If the experience is awful for me, of course I don't want to do it! It's okay to admit when the experience, for me, is...

Welcome, @daisydew Thanks, @Sideways, for the shout out. I've lived with Little Wendell a long time, but for most of my parts, Sideways is right, it can take a lot of patience and work. I have a dissociative disorder, without much amnesia (Mrs. W says I have very little since doing a lot of...

Yes. When we grieve, there is movement inside and hope. Hugs for you, AnD.

Good luck with your journey, @Chris416 Try eating something with an unusual shape, like a raisin. Put it in your mouth and feel its shape and texture. Move it around your mouth, and notice the feelings of your tongue and cheeks and palate. Notice any taste. Bite into it, and notice the...

This was my case as well. That book, although hard to read, was one that changed my life. Best wishes to you on your journey through this stuff.

I score really low on the dissociation screening tests, am highly functional, and have an intellectually engaging job. So finding out I had a dissociative disorder took years. My awareness started when I was reading an old paper on PTSD, sexuality, and DID. I was focused on the PTSD and...

My parts have pages in a journal, where we paste pictures of things they like and of their safe spaces. Twice, we have done a group portrait, where the emphasis isn't so much on what the parts look like, but how they relate to one another. My therapist would like me to do another one, but I...

I've had two back surgeries for bad disks, so I know all about nerve pain. I know how much it can weigh you down. The types of things that you want to write are the documents that many people hate to put together, so I think you will find success in the future.

Sorry for not replying--the thread fell off my notices for some reason. In college, I got a double major in English lit and in physics. There are not so many of those out there! I didn't think I had the great American novel in me, and I like doing things with my hands, so I went on to get a...

I understand better! What kind of writing do you want to do? A post-doc from my group transitioned from research to technical writing. Working for a writing agency is an easier start than straight to freelance. I have one friend who successfully freelances, but she worked in the field as a...

I'm an English major from many years ago. Nowadays, I'm a scientist who writes papers and edits/proofreads all the papers produced by my group. I'll raise my hand for editing/proofreading/possibly tutoring!

Sometimes when I talk about difficult things, I avoid talking about what I am feeling or even avoid acknowledging those feelings inside me. It's as if I'm reporting events, and not living events. My therapist reminds me by asking what I am feeling.

Some of my parts were afraid they would die if we integrate. They still feel that way, I think. My therapist has assured the parts that no one will be forced to do anything they don't want to. It's also possible to integrate part way, and be really functional. @bellbird and I are both...