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Thank you so much for all of your replies. I know my feelings of fat shame from being formally overweight has really colored my view of diabetes. I spoke to a close friend today and she was really worried about me going on a diet. Mainly because my anxiety can trigger a lot of obsessive...

What a rollercoaster! Now I just spoke to a diabetic nutritionist (luckily, the baby's grandmother) and she says stress and anxiety can actually spike your blood sugar. That if I was under a lot of stress during the test (uh, needles, so A LOT) that it may have skewed my results. She's not even...

I'm just entering my 3rd trimester of pregnancy and I was asked to do a glucose tolerance test. This was extremely difficult for me as I have an intense phobia of intravenous needles linked to my trauma. It was 3 lab draws in all, but with the aid of my medications I was able to make it through...

A bit of an update. I had lunch with a friend and former co worker of mine today. Apparently my boss has now begun shifting his bull onto her, and she's already angry and exhaunsted. "He called me a freak of nature the other day." she ranted. Then he teased her about going out drinking with...

You're absolutely right. I quit last night. It was really scary and I haven't heard back from him yet, I'm expecting a lot of personal attacks and vitriol. But as I was trying to make a decision I realized, "this baby doesn't need my money as much as it needs me to be a healthy person." and I...

Boy, tonight was hard. I have been attempting to keep him distant by ignoring all intrusive questions about my life, as well as his constant baiting to get me to talk about his. Literally ignoring- as in not responding. I thought it was working and I've been able to get some work done. But...

There is no HR to complain to, unfortunately. I answered the ad over craigslist originally, and it's just him publishing the paper. He also runs another free newspaper in town. He's an independent publisher so there is no HR. Technically I'm HR, lol, since I'm constantly having to mediate...

Thanks for your response, cherryblossom. I've already had several discussions with him about his behavior: intrusive questions, totally inappropriate comments and such. When I was around 3 months pregnant and still reeling from morning sickness he continually made comments like, "You know, you...

I recently became the editor of a weekly newspaper. I didn't mean to- I have no real interest in journalism, I'm an artist and I applied to become the ad designer. But the publisher decided I had "what it took" and promoted me within weeks. The paper was just starting out and honestly just think...

You're all extremely kind to be so concerned! :) The truth is I've known him for a long time- since high school. But he was always very shy and never made a move until well- I did! He's also well known to my trusted friends. Do I think it was reckless? Well, I think when you drink you're...

freakofnurture, thanks for you concern- no matter how trustworthy someone seems I am always on the look out for abuse and power struggles. It's something I've become very aware of in my relationships. :) <Edited - removed full quote of post above.>

I recently did something that I've never done before. I'm not a big drinker, and when I am, I have always been a happy, affectionate, fun drunk. Recently I started dating a new man- whom I like very much. He's very kind, gentle and soft spoken- not the type of guy I would usually go for (<-- I'm...

My mother have a very arms length relationship. She lives 10 states away and that's the way I like it. My life here is very separate from everything I was as a child. Recently my mother sent me a whole package of baby pictures and pictures of my as a child. Well to begin they were filthy. The...

I have a lot of night anxiety if I have to work the next day. I also had a parent who continually said I was useless, lazy and incompetent.So when at home I become hyper aware of the time. I keep fixating on, "What if I don't get enough sleep?" or worrying about over sleeping, forgetting my...

I experienced something very similar when I discovered an ex-boyfriend was dating a VERY young girl. It seems like you projected a lot of your feelings about your trauma on to this girl. When something triggers me, I can find it very difficult to control my emotions and in my case I was not only...

Thanks for your reply. I have been officially diagnosed, but my doctor is from a state run health facility for low income people. I'm on medication, and I have access to a mental health doctor but I don't know if she can do much but prescribe me more medicine. The cost per visit is a bit of an...

I can't seem to stop freaking out about little things. I'm under a lot of pressure right now, I'm out of money and my student loan companies are hounding me everyday about payments. But it's coming out in other ways. I suddenly can't be in the house alone without locking the door. I can't stop...

I've always had difficulty keeping- or staying- at a job because I always struggle with authority figures. I become increasingly paranoid they hate me, are judging me and think I'm a bad worker. I get an overwhelming sense that I'm a burden on the company and eventually quit. The physical...

I also have a very serious problem with anxiety when I'm in an unfamiliar area. I recently was chosen to have my art exhibited in a showcase in Seattle (I live in Oregon) and I will be there for two days. Luckily I have friends around me who understand my issues, so I have a friend traveling...

I never made a conscious effort to forgive my family. I believe forgiveness is a symptom of how you feel- not an action. When you are able to fully heal and move on from your pain- that's when you forgive. If you try to force forgiveness you can often end up resenting them and hating yourself...

Thank you for your encouragement. It feels good to know I'm not the only one :)

I've never associated myself with my biological family. They were abusive, drunk, and drugged all the time. The main point of pride I has as a child was that I wasn't like them. I found familial relationships with my friends and created bonds with them I felt were completely unbreakable. Then a...

I experience hypervigilance as a passenger as well! I have a few choice people that I trust as drivers, and that's about all I can stand. And I'm constantly thinking about the horrible accidents that could happen and what I would do. The highway is particular awful. I mean, to be honest the...

Hi I'm new to this forum but I really wanted to get some other perspectives on this... I was finally diagnosed with PTSD last year, I'm 26 and I don't have driver's license. I admit it's a source of shame for me, but I am absolutely terrified of driving. I understand the root of it, I was...