lovestopaintwithblack
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Hi there,
I was molested when I was seven by a male babysitter who was 18. When i was 9 i realized that it was wrong and told my mother-the response was "it happened a long time ago, lets just forget about it".
I feel like I'm constantly on alert.
Last month, myself and 2 kids and my partner and his 13 year old daughter went to our cottage for a few days. The cottage is small and privacy was difficult at times. My partner's 13 year old daughter went in the bathroom where her dad was cutting his nails and she shut the door so she could put on her bra and top as there was no where else to get dressed.
I started pacing when i saw this happen. When he came out of the bathroom I said to him "that was wrong, so wrong and very sick" and "i can't see you anymore-we are done" and "did you like watching her?". I was shaking and my face was burning hot , my head was spinning and my heart was racing. I ran out of the cottage and got into my car and took off while my partner was running after me pleading with me to stop. I sped off in a panic and almost drove my car off the road in the middle of nowhere. After a while I came back and had a meltdown...punching the inside of my car, sobbing, and wanted to curl up in a ball and disappear. I scared everyone and felt so guilty. Why?????
I was molested when I was seven by a male babysitter who was 18. When i was 9 i realized that it was wrong and told my mother-the response was "it happened a long time ago, lets just forget about it".
I feel like I'm constantly on alert.
Last month, myself and 2 kids and my partner and his 13 year old daughter went to our cottage for a few days. The cottage is small and privacy was difficult at times. My partner's 13 year old daughter went in the bathroom where her dad was cutting his nails and she shut the door so she could put on her bra and top as there was no where else to get dressed.
I started pacing when i saw this happen. When he came out of the bathroom I said to him "that was wrong, so wrong and very sick" and "i can't see you anymore-we are done" and "did you like watching her?". I was shaking and my face was burning hot , my head was spinning and my heart was racing. I ran out of the cottage and got into my car and took off while my partner was running after me pleading with me to stop. I sped off in a panic and almost drove my car off the road in the middle of nowhere. After a while I came back and had a meltdown...punching the inside of my car, sobbing, and wanted to curl up in a ball and disappear. I scared everyone and felt so guilty. Why?????
