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Pauline, breathe. Slow your mind down, try to breathe, keep breathing. I’m so sorry to hear about your experiences and I’m sorry to hear about your mums diagnosis. Things are tough right now, you’re absolutely entitled to feeling anything that you are feeling. Please just by all means keep...

Another night another flashback session, sigh. My body and mind is exhausted. I really wish I could just sleep, and at peace for a change. How could I not be fed up of this?!

Thank you for reaching out. I completely relate, perhaps I wouldn’t go as far as saying I’m ‘suicidal’ anymore although probably not far off as the feelings of being stuck are prominent again. It’s that pain you are referring to, when it gets too much like for me at the moment, I try to search...

Hi Mach, I wonder what you may mean when you say ‘broken and hiding is good’? Is that you may hide your broken self from your loved ones? Just trying to better understand. I’m sorry to hear about your health also, this thing is difficult enough so having to deal with physical ill health too...

I’m so sorry to hear of your struggle Lumos. I completely understand and actually try to refrain at looking at old photos pre-trauma at the moment as they do make me rather upset too. I was so oblivious to all the bad in the world, naive really, radiating happiness, extremely sociable, ‘life of...

That’s exactly it. Like I genuinely fought very hard to be where I am today, alive. I committed myself fully to getting better, to overcoming my fears, to understand this new self etc and went through some really terrifying and dark times because of this, because naturally nobody really wants...

Sorry, I should’ve explained better. Not so much that I’m hopeful I won’t be as symptomatic because I genuinely don’t think I will get that far. No matter how hard I can try I am fundamentally broken & always end up in this same headspace and it is a bloody full time job dealing with it all...

I’ve been on this forum for a while now and have had communications with some truly inspirational people. Those who have been sufferers of this as**ole of an illness for many many years but I can’t help but feel like that just will not be me. I can’t picture myself living with this for that...

15 years?! Kudos to you for really hanging in there for so long. I’m hopeful that one day I’ll be able to say the same thing... although I’m not so sure I can survive this thing for that long.

I’m absolutely fed up. I think of my PTSD and then I realise just how messed up this whole mental state is. How can a a human being loose their entire self, everything they’ve ever known, be flooded with terrifying and painful flashbacks, anxiety attack’s, avoid human interaction, be in...

I probably look like a crazy lady... I often shake my head so hard so to ‘shake the thoughts away’

Thank you for taking the time to respond to me. I’m sorry to hear that you too have suffered at the hands of someone who should’ve been the last person to ever hurt you... I know this very well... perhaps life is just unfair like that? I was full of hope that when I finally managed to get out...

I can’t believe after the journey I feel I have undertaken the last few months I am back to square one, or so it feels like anyway. In a nutshell, I experienced trauma at the hands of the love of my life, I hit absolute rock bottom despite never having experienced any mental heath problems...

I pretty much couldn't have written this any better myself. I am someone who is oh so picky with the people I let into my life, be it friendships or relationships and yet I ended up experiencing the worst trauma of my life at the hands of the man that loved me for many years! How did I not see...

Thank you all for your kind input. It definitely is a tough one to keep yourself moving forward when you almost feel stuck and overwhelmed by the amount of things that are going on in the current moment. I have taken your advice and decided to keep myself busy, whether it be work or house...

Hi all, Currently it feels as though my entire life is falling apart again with so many things missing, a complete lack of direction, the fear of the unknown, and being faced with situations in which I have no choice but to make life changing decisions. It’s all really taking a toll on me and...

Thanks Wendell, I love these little comforts, over time whilst dealing with the aftermath of trauma I have become so acquainted with them. When nothing seemed good in this world, a good cup of coffee or a good book to read always seemed to be a good distraction. I got through the day. I...

@ladee, thank you so much! Honestly, when you're having a worse day it's so easy to forget the progress that you have made so thank you for reminding me of that! I'm going to get though this..

Dear @Lionheart777, It is true, I agree that through treatment and dedication to healing things can get better. They definitely have for me! It was only up until March/April I was swallowed by so much darkness and no matter what I did it just wouldn't shift. But as my therapist said, no matter...

@ladee, I love this: 'This is memories. You survived the real thing. Give yourself a lot of credit for being alive!!!' It is definitely something that I have been consciously trying to remind myself of throughout my journey. The trauma is not happening again, it is done, I am safe, I am...

Hi all, Today is a major trigger date for me.. I have been working extremely hard on myself the last few months and have finally managed to get myself out of the darkness of suicide (so grateful!) but unfortunately my mind is kicking the absolute sh** out of me today. Honestly, I adore our...

Today is a major trigger date for me. On this day last year was the ending of a very traumatic period of my life and a beginning of a completely different life, a lifelong journey with PTSD. Although I knew this day would come and thinking I am better prepared I am finding that the...