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I feel like I'm doing everything I'm supposed to. I'm in counseling, I'm eating, I talk to family, I journal, I take my meds on time, I'm ahead in my school work... But it's getting harder and harder to force myself out of bed. I lay there and try to motivate myself to think of something to...

I really felt you on what you wrote. I HATE the waiting for texts. He told me once all casual like in passing, it's not like I need to talk to you EVERY day. Ouch. So I really try to go every other day. I might be crazy but it seems to me if I break my rule and text the next day he ignores my...

I was basking in the fact that my marine called me things like sweetie and babe. Then he told me about how he was asked by the owner of the vape shop he hangs out at not to refer to the girl that works there as sweetie. It could be considered condescending and sexist. He was like, I call...

Jewel- Near You Always And when you look in my eyes, Please know my heart is in your hands. It's nothing that I understand, But in your arms you have complete power over me. So be gently if you please.

I'm grateful for my two sweet nieces. I actually left the house today to get fabric to make their Christmas presents. I'm making the 3 year old a blanket/sleeping bag mermaid tail. I'm making the 8 year old one that looks like she's being eaten by a shark. No matter what my mood is if I go visit...

My chihuahua Lucy is the only reason I get out of bed most days. If I didn't have to take her out and feed her I'd have stayed in bed all day. I feel bad for her though. Today I didn't get up until 2pm. She's my sweet girl.

I'm getting madder as I go through these threads! I see sooooo much similarity in them. I'm angry at myself for caring about him. I'm angry at him for being every f&cking thing I've EVER wanted in a man, except of course for the "bonus" package of PTSD. I'm angry at myself for being willing to...

I'm pissed off that he can reach out long distance to his stupid ex girlfriend everyday but not to me. After being in an unsuccessful relationship with her and his ex wife he decided he can't be in a relationship right now. He makes a horrible boyfriend but a great friend. UUUUUUUGH...

I'm currently giving my Marine space as to not overwhelm him and push him for more than he can give. I'm having a really hard time with this. What do you guys do while your twiddling your thumbs waiting? I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes. I poke around on here a lot, study a LOT (I'm in...

Mine sit in my jewelry box. 2 of them. They were both bought at Kay's so IF I ever get married I can trade them in for a new ring. If I'm not engaged or in a relationship when I finish school in 6 years I'm going to trade them in and buy myself a nice pair of diamond earrings. If trading...

I once freaked out and crawled off the table and locked myself in a bathroom once in the ER when a male doctor tried to give me a catheter. BUT... I am now able to get a pelvic done successfully. I prefer nurse practitioners over actual doctors, I've found them gentler and kinder. I tell them...

I'm not angry but irritated at my friend D. I've known him for 13 years and we dated two times during that time. But we're just friends now. He's been complaining how he just wants cuddles and I really want cuddles as my Marine (we aren't comitted) won't give them to me because they are too...

I shaved my legs. Not for a date but so I could feel my silky legs on my fuzzy blankets.

I never know what to do when the war stories come out. I make sure I pay very close attention and don't talk much and do NOT let myself cry no matter what I hear. He's never sitting close to me when the stories come. He's usually sitting in his chair so I can't really sit close or offer him my...

I do NOT like unwelcomed touches. When I was going through my darkest time (few months all day intensive outpatient) my counselor told me to tell my gf at the time she needed to ask permission to touch me. She just couldn't get it. She'd trigger me everyday. Then she went to reaching over and...

I understand how you feel. I get aroused reading things that should disgust me. It just comes with the territory. I try not to make myself feel bad about my thoughts. You can't control what arouses you, lord knows I've tried. I read this in my psych book, and it made me feel better for some...

It's so comforting reading other stories. I was just on websites last night for "typical" relationship advice. I wanted to know why my Marine texts me back with just a few word responses and questions. They all said he wasn't interested. We aren't "together" but I know he likes talking to...

"There you go again...(my name)'s pity party" "Why don't you just get up? How hard is it to get out of bed?" "How can you be afraid of the shower? That's just stupid" "I'm always here for you", apparently except when I'm really down. "Oh, I know (so and so), and they were molested as a...

PTSD is a beast. No matter where you get it from its now yours to deal with. But I do sort of get where you're coming from. I feel like I have "wussy" PTSD (sexual childhood abuse triggered by sexual harassment at work) compared to my Marine w combat PTSD. He was also abused sexually and raped...

Thank you so much for writing this. I'd never ask my Marine if he killed someone. He did three tours in Iraq at the height of the war and was an infantryman that took Fallujah. He HAD to have. But that is what happens in war. He did what had to be done. I'm proud of him. He told me a story...

My Marine would literally probably lick a garbage can than say he was in the Army. I'd say your bullsh*t meter is right on point here. Run. No amount of care and patience on your part can fix what's wrong with that guy.

This post really resonated with me. My dad, who was in the military and suffers from non-combat PTSD warned me to "be careful" when he found out about my Marine and I's friendship. My dad is VERY pro military and VERY supportive of vets so this surprised me. I love my dad and he has PTSD...

It's perfectly ok to be in a D/s relationship that only occurs in the bedroom. I refuse to be submissive outside the bedroom. I'm really easy going so I tend to do things the way men want anyway but I always reserve the right to be equal outside of playtime.

@ halflifeguy thank you for your reply. That's how I feel too. I've been spending a lot of time on this site reading. It's helping me be less crazy about wanting to talk to him all the time and be more able to give him space. I know that I need to fill the void I'm trying to fill with him...

Thank you, of course I'll take hugs! I saw him tonight. I almost didn't go over because he said he was feeling very blah and would probably be bad company. When I got there he was very worked up (never seen him mad before) over a discussion he had in town with some acquaintances. He has very...