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The woman I have been dating has autism and she suggested I look into it. I started reading about it and I was surprised how closely it describes me. I did all the written tests and scored high to very high on all of them. I am currently looking into a full evaluation. I too would very much...

The view from my front porch. The distant mountains are in Old Mexico. I live 8 miles north of the border.

I came across this in the desert this morning while riding my dirt bike. I was riding in an area of southern Arizona and I was obviously in an immigrant corridor. These signs are brilliant as they have the exact location of the person in need. I bet there is water stashed nearby so that when...

I don’t believe in any deities but I do believe there is more than our day to day reality. Jung wrote about collective consciousness. I think he was on to something. Blake wrote about cleansing the doors of perception and again I believe he got it right. I believe we filter out much of...

An ice cream bar and it was good, 97F here right now.

The Art Forger by Shapiro. Startit a while back and misplaced it. I had left it in California. I retrieved it on the last trip and now I can’t put it down. She also wrote The Muralist which I greatly enjoyed. Lots of insight into the art world.

Motorcycles. I have not been riding much due to pain from a neck injury. The riding I have done has been on a BMW road bike. This afternoon I got on my Husqvarna and rode off road in the desert. I did 42 miles. It made a so so day wonderful. I have been happy since the ride.

For me it isn’t about fixing, it is about understanding myself. The more I understand how I have developed counter productive ways of dealing with life. Once I understand I can work on not responding in the counter productive manner. That isn’t something I will ever fully master but I can...

Talk to strangers and look them in the eye. Ask questions about their lives. Be open and honest. What is the most twisted movie you have seen?

My heart goes out to you. My healing journey has been all about redemption. I have recently learned there is a very good chance I am autistic. The woman I am dating is and she noticed things about me that led her to think I might be. I took all the tests and scored very high so now I am...

Smartass.☺️

In a breakfast burrito with green chili. What is your favorite country?

We are in the same boat marriage wise. I am fortunate that I don’t have a lot of anger. I am at a loss on what I want to do with my life now. I am considering moving out of the US just because I don’t like all the political division and anger. I have obtained New Zealand citizenship but I am...

I guess I am lucky as most of my ideation was passive but then I had a few events that could be considered active. That scared me and I realized how toxic my wife and the kids with her are to me, a constant trigger. I have gone almost completely no contact and all ideation stopped. I hope that...

I think the lingering effect of parental suicide linger throughout life. That is a pretty strong deterrent for me as I don’t want my kids any more messed up because of me.

Yoga and TRX straps.

I witnessed a couple serious attempts by my mother before she was successful. When I was about 7 I found her in her car with the swimming pool vacuum hose running from the exhaust to the passenger compartment. Another time she jumped in front of the car when my father was driving it, later...

Just an hour of yoga today.

Thank you.

Yes and take it easy on yourself.

3 1/2 mile walk.

I haven’t posted in a few days since I was traveling but I have been walking, a lot. Also I just finished an hour of yoga. I was in DC, now in California and at the latest I will be back home in Arizona by the 5th, maybe sooner. I miss being able to exercise in a more methodical way such as...

I understand as I have experienced the same thing. For me I have made a conscious effort at being more outgoing and social. I started by just talking to strangers like the cashiers in stores. I have gotten better but I also have learned to appreciate my solitude. I am in a long distance...

Thank you for bringing this up. I am not familiar with the term but I am grieving my failed marriage. I don’t think I have ever really experienced grief before. I think I always just distracted myself. Now I am experiencing grief for the marriage and it makes me a bit emotionally numb. I...

I did the same bicycle ride i did yesterday but I was 5 minutes faster without trying. I also rode the BMW for a couple hours and took it off road along the border wall. It is a heavy bike so it is a workout off the pavement. I did come across something interesting, a stash of ladders near...