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Thanks @Kaia Yeah, I haven't heard from her in a few days, so I might not ever again. *shrug* But yeah, I figured that if/when I do ever hook up with somebody in a serious way, I'm not going to come out in a dramatic manner. Certainly not in a 'oh pitiful me' way. That's lame. Hell, that's...

Do them anyway. It felt utterly ridiculous to me for a long time, but they do sort of work, after a while. Like, a loooong while in my case. I think the biggest thing that helped was understanding that all those feelings of hatred and the impetus to do self-harm were actually symptoms of a...

Aargh. Yeah I ran into someone like this recently on OKCupid. (I doubt I really need another person in my life right now, but.. you know.. snuggles, right?) :angelic: So this girl is basically perfect, I mean omg she is into everything that appeals to all the people inside of me. Kid, Fiend...

My mother is in the same situation. Her mom was pure evil forever, and caused her PTSD. Now that the alz has taken over though... it's weird, it's like for the first time in her life she doesn't know how to be vicious and horrible. It's just strange. How to feel, you know... Here's the beast...

I know exactly how you feel. I have a lot of trouble with symptoms at work sometimes. I sometimes just sit at my desk and cry all day. Granted, my eyes only get the slightest bit wet, so I can blame it on allergies. I also find myself tensing my legs a lot, and flexing muscles.. Sometimes when...

Yep, just piece by little piece. It will start coming out slowly, and occasionally like a flood of information that'll knock your socks off. It's fun. :)

I ran into this same problem, long ago. I had a similar situation, where everything that I liked was ridiculed, anything that I achieved was discounted, and god help me, anything that I made was first used against me in any way possible, and then destroyed right in front of my face. I just...

@Ice_Fire Yes, well. Unfortunately it's too late for that. I did hurt someone, 17 years ago, very badly. I didn't know any of this stuff at that time, it's only through reflection that I've figured it out. It's a complex story, and is rather too graphic for this thread. It's in my trauma diary...

I've got to apologize. I hope my last reply doesn't hurt anyone's feelings or cause negative waves. I was just trying to answer honestly. If it offends I'll be happy to delete it. On a side note though, it did cause me to have a breakthrough of tremendous weight and significance, a very...

Aargh. Yeah, I switch.. hard. This is a difficult subject. One of my alts was born of sexual abuse, and he pretty much takes control every time. And it is more of a co-consciousness thing. I know he's there, I know he wants to be fed, etc. Truthfully I don't know how much of what he wants is...

Oh, okay.. cool. Well then, you're already a lot more on top of things than I have been for a long time. :wacky: Keep kicking ass. :)

I'm agreement with the others. This isn't cowardice. At all. Cowardice is.. well, it's like.. if you utterly denied your feelings, and didn't try to deal with them in any way, that would be cowardice. Even the act of coming to this forum and writing these feelings down is bravery. Plus keep in...

Sometimes you gotta be the selfish one, in order to ensure your emotional survival. Like I said.. I've been put in positions like this before, shouldering the burdens of others originally because I cared and wanted to help out, only to find them piling more and more shit on top of me until I had...

Aargh. I've never been a position like yours. I do agree that you are being used in a horrible way. People trying to use you as a shield to get what they want without sticking their necks out one bit. Damn, I don't know what to say, except.. well, I would say screw 'em. Tell them they gotta...

-- I'm right with you on this. I do fine when I'm at work for the most part, not so much because I trust anyone there, (I don't.) but because I have routines to follow and this keeps me on target. My mind doesn't wander and therefore I'm okay. I do have some troubles at work.. I mean, I have to...

Well, I think Friday pretty much nailed it for me. I'm the same way. I can feel huge compassion for other victims, but not toward myself. It's not the same thing as self-pity, which I used to confuse it for. I was the most pitiful guy in the world thinking 'look at all the compassion I have'...

@Melp283 That's a really neat list. Did you get it from somewhere, or make it yourself? :)

Hey @shimmerz Yeah, I've got a couple of people rattling around my head. That one is me from about 15-23.. he doesn't really show up except when I'm manic. He's a lot of fun, but unfortunately when things go bad, they go really bad. He disappears and I'm just stuck with a major depression, with...

Oh, just read up above. They explained it much better than I did. I'd say at best that you are, as you said, a selfish-but-moral person. Almost everybody is. Oh, but if you are a troll, please go away. Trolls suck.

Um.. no. No we aren't. I can kinda get the idea behind this question, if you mean.. Do we, as folks with PTSD, have trouble empathizing with other folks. I would say that yes, we can have that sort of trouble from time to time, as we can be consumed with our worries and miss out on the damage...

Home now. Talked to the doctor and they said to hunker down until it passes. So everything is cool. :)

Oh and please don't come down on me/him for this.. We just wanted to get it out there. Carry on.

Okay so I've gone manic today. It happened while I was responding to another thread about someone feeling uneasy among their own people and comfortable around other folks. Shortly after my post I experienced enlightenment and the beauty of the world washed over me. I am beautiful, I am...

This is a very good thing, to be able to discern the real world from the internal dialogue full of worries and troubles. Enjoy it. :)