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How do you deal with the hypervigilance and irritability? I've been without it for weeks at least, and suddenly it's come up today and it's really freaking me out. Any general advice on how to calm it down would be appreciated.

These damn ruminations... Every day, the cycling anxiety, worrying about losing my mind, it rips at me like claws against my burning, acidic stomach. And then there's also anger. When someone contradicts me I feel momentary anger - I want to retaliate and call them out. It's so silly, so...

I've posted here before about my fear of insanity. The fear cycles - my first obsessive fear was about schizophrenia. Then I moved on to bipolar. Then borderline. I definitely don't have borderline, nor do I have schizophrenia. Who knows if either of those will come out someday (since there is...

I seem to have some emotional regulation issues. I don't self harm, but lately I've been having more and more urges to beat my face/head with my fists. I am depressed often, always alone in my bed, not showering, not cleaning up after myself. I have constant anxious thoughts, intrusive fears...

Hi, I am in sort of a crisis state... Maybe not exactly a crisis, but I am kind of all over the place and full of anxiety and other negative feelings. I have been doing EMDR on and off for the last three years. I started up again a few weeks ago. I have noticed that I will feel great...

I was abused from birth. Molested, beaten, neglected, berated... And then I was adopted by a horrible woman who did these things even more severely. I want to kill myself. I am 21 and have been in therapy since I was 8 years old but I still am so broken. I can't trust anyone, I can't be healthy...

How am I supposed to tell the difference? Psychologists say I just have PTSD and anxiety but when I research it I see I have essentially all the characteristics of a personality disorder. No personality disorder really fits me perfectly but the general issues all apply. Half the time I'm fine...

Hi all, I have been in a great relationship for a year and some weeks. I love my girlfriend. She's great for me. We are long distance but have had several visits. The longest one was 3 months over this summer. While she was with me, I had some issues, because I have PTSD, but was more or less...

Hi all, I constantly feel like a bad person. I feel like I am wretched, pure evil, that I must protect others from myself, lest they be tainted by the evil that will inevitably be leaked out from me. I haven't really done anything to warrant feeling so evil, but I struggle every day with...

How many of you have developed phobias along with your PTSD? Because of some of my trauma, I have a severe phobia of mental illness. I have worried almost every day of my life that I am/will become schizophrenic, bipolar, borderline etc. I have been in therapy since early childhood and have been...

Hi, My partner has come to live with me for three months. We are in a long distance relationship and visit every other month. Since we have an open summer, we decided to spend it together. My PTSD is pretty bad... It is about day five and not one day has passed that I didn't feel on edge...

How many of you have experienced sudden awakening late at night/early in the morning with anxiety, high mental energy/agitation and intrusive thoughts? Last night I was slowly nudged awake by cycling thoughts that were giving me a lot of anxiety. The thoughts were intrusive as I could not at...

Sometimes I will feel very emotional and feel guilty as though my feelings are shameful and when my partner can't give me the level of verbal support I feel I need, I feel rejected and like she doesn't really love me. I get really angry but then when I deconstruct the anger I realize I just...

Hi all, I am wondering how many of you out there can relate to this... So I am constantly hypervigilant, and since it is always present with me, one of the things I am so hypervigilant of is my mind. I have had a deep phobia about mental illness since I was a young teenager, and so whenever my...

Hi all, I have been doing EMDR once a week for the past month. I did it yesterday. I went into the session feeling pretty good. For a few days, I was feeling more capable and less subject to the pain of my PTSD. I thought it was the success of the first sessions having helped me out a bit...

Hi there, I have read that PTSD and OCD commonly co-occur. I was diagnosed with Tourrette's when I was about 7. I was not diagnosed with OCD but I know for myself that I had it then too. They hit me at the same time. By then I had already incurred severe trauma (loss of parents and abuse by...

Hi, I am having an earth-shattering, extremely distressing moment... My partner told me that she is not happy, that she has deteriorated emotionally since being in our relationship... This is because of how my PTSD manifests itself. I need constant reassurance and have angry outbursts. I go...

Hello, I am aware that many people with PTSD spend much of their life choosing to abstain from intimate/romantic relationships. I can certainly understand why. I am in a committed relationship (with the mutual intention of being partnered for life) and boy is it something of a nightmare for me...

Hello, I have PTSD from being abused as a child by my adoptive mother. Lately I have found it more difficult to dissociate from my symptoms and maintain a strong, resilient facade. I have been having more flashbacks, more sadness, more anxiety, and have generally been more emotionally sensitive...

Hello, Lately I have been struggling to cope with the nasty combination of my PTSD and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). The OCD frequently manifests itself as obsessive thoughts that I will lose my mind, be driven to suicide, that I will be betrayed by my significant other, or that I am...

Hello, I was abandoned by my biological parents, witnessed countless horrors from as early on as I can remember (remember my stepfather severely beating my mother when I was 4 etc.), and when I was adopted (still at age 4) I was severely abused (emotionally, psychologically, physically) by my...

Hello, I know these ailments may be co-occurring. However, I am having some trouble differentiating between the two - borderline personality disorder (BPD) vs PTSD. Since I was about 16 I experienced severe fear of abandonment in relationships. Whenever I got even the slightest hint that the...

Hi all, So I have been diagnosed with PTSD. I am wondering if anyone here knows anything about PTSD + mood swings. I have a pretty severe phobia of mental illness, and so as I watch my moods shift I feel this looming, horrid fear that I am observing some form of bipolar in myself. I...