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I think I have finally made a breakthrough with my fear of trusting anyone. I have been having a rough go for the past several months. But a dream I had enlightened me just a little and it feels ok now. My dream was about my new T and I blindfolded her to take her to "the house of horrors" where...

Hello Friends hope yous are all doing well. I have stayed away for a little while because I have been struggling terribly. Depression and Anxiety are through the roof. In the past weeks I have had to endure being around 3 of my abusers and try to be Merry for my kids. Christmas at my parents I...

For the past couple of weeks I have felt emotionally and physically numb. I think it has to do with this week being my last appointment with my t before she leaves her practice and the country for good. My t has set me up with another trauma therapist, but I just don't know if I can start over...

I am hoping you can help shed some light on this as it is getting worse. For the past couple of weeks I have been reliving a specific day of abuse. The only difference is that I am watching it from up above but can feel everything that is happening to me. I wake up crying, uncontrollable...

Where shall I start? For the past couple of weeks I have been suffering from high anxiety and panic attacks. Sleeping, and eating are really not existent to me right now. I keep forcing myself to keep going with work and family life. Yesterday for the first time in a very long time I did self...

Hi everyone!! I haven't written in awhile, trying to take it easy as I was really struggling. I went for my weekly visit with my T this week and I have felt numb ever since. I have been seeing my T for over 3 years, she is the only person I have ever told my life secrets that I kept buried...

All I can say is I put myself here. I am at my family dinner and sitting here crying in the wash room. I convinced myself to come for my kids sake, so they could see there cousins, etc. Two of my abusers are here. My anxiety is to the max and trying to act normal. I have been told by...

I am finding it REALLY hard to forgive myself when I hate parts of myself. I feel like I'm caught in a circle. I have to love myself to forgive myself and I have to forgive myself to love myself. I feel lost and confused and I just can't wrap my head around it. If anyone can share words of...

Just wondering if anyone has been to Homewood and can share information about the PTSD program and\or stories. My psychiatrist thinks I need more in hands on therapy then 50 min counselling once a week. Would greatly appreciate if anyone is willing to share.

I finally got up the courage to reach out for extra help and I still feel no relief. I couldn't admit to them that I was having SI and thoughts of self harm because of feeling worried they will take my kids away and put me in the hosptal. I haven't slept well in weeks, waking up to flashbacks...

I am having a real tough struggle with my anger over being abused. I am trying to keep calm but feeling the anger turning inward. Now my SI thoughts and urges are getting stronger. I am also hearing my abusers negative talk and it's making me weaker. Can anyone share words of wisdom or books or...

For those that have read my post earlier this week, I am not handling my emotions and fears right now. Barely sleeping even with medication. I have tried everyday this week to talk to my T, but everyday no return call. I checked with secretary and yes the T is infact working. I have contacted...

Hello my friends! I feel like I am going crazy! I haven't slept for 3 nights now since reliving my past in my last sleep. This is hard to write about but I will do my best to explain. ***may contain triggers ***** In my sleep I am in my early teenage years. One of my abusers is giving me the...

I am having great difficulty on trying to set bondaries (physical, emotional and intellectual). Was hoping all of you great people could give advice or suggestions. Is this a common difficulty for people with PTSD??

I have had a very rough week dealing with my PTSD. I am having SI thoughts, I am afraid to get out of bed. I am trying to not go back to my old coping mechanisms. The best way to describe it is I am just scared and feeling very vulnerable. Does anyone ever get to this point? Any tips on what to...

Hi! I am new to this site. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and currently in therapy. I met with my T last week and I have been struggling since. She made a comment that I would be there longer then she will be there, meaning in therapy. I took offense to this I do not want to be a "chronic" or a...