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I seem to have an issue with remembering events. It really came to my attention on Wednesday when I ran into someone I had met and had a conversation with 3 weeks ago. I knew I knew her, my feelings about her were good. But I couldn’t place her. As soon as she started to tell me what we talked...

It's been years since I've logged on. I've been on a downward spiral for three months now and I needed my diary to write in. So here I am. Some of you may remember me. I do see some familiar names. So hi! ? And those of you that are new to me, I'm hoping to get to know you. Recap: I have four...

I had jury duty today. It was early, around 8am. (This is early for me. I don't usually get up until 11am.) Out of the fifty or so people, I was selected as the 25. They proceeded to ask us questions about bias and being impartial. After I found out that it was a sexual abuse case (my gut hit...

I'm not sure if this belongs here...move it if needed. I've been having other health issues that are somewhat related to depression. (Isn't everything???) There is pain in my left arm that has been there since January. It started with tingling and has now progressed to deep, constant pain. It's...

I've had depression most of my life. I think I had it from about 12 years old. It wasn't medicated until I turned 23, after my first child. So I've definitely had my ups and downs. I'm just coming out of a dip that lasted about a month. (I hope I'm coming all the way out...) My question is: Can...

I'm crying over happy things. I'm feeling emotions about normal daily activities. I feel so much pride in my kids that I'm getting choked up. What the heck? This never used to happen. In fact, I don't have many positive emotions like pure happiness or pride (is it sad I can't think of any...

I don't seem to be able to detect that. It's either I'm fine or I'm totally NOT fine. My hubs wants me to tell him when things are starting to get bad...and I just don't know what to tell him. I think sometimes the act of saying it puts me over the edge. I do my best keeping the stress levels...

Back in high school, during what I call the dark ages, I drew a lot of surrealistic drawings that troubled many people. In my cavalier attitude, I just drew what the heck I wanted. Nudes, babies, trees, limbs, eye balls, and lots of openings: drawers, doors, portals. Went to college and...

This is an exercise that Carpedium (old member) asked me to do when I was having feelings of worthlessness. It's pretty difficult if you are in the thick of PTSD symptoms and a pretty good indicator of healthy/unhealthy thinking toward yourself. Name 5 things that you value about yourself...

Just wanted to stop by and see how all of you are doing. Boy has the forum changed. I need to read up on a few friends here. I think life has slowed enough for me to contribute a bit more here. So it's been 10 years since I was diagnosed. My therapist told me that healing time averages between...

Dentist fear for my daughter. Last week, I found three cavities in her teeth. And ever since making an appointment with the dentist, I've been downright bitchy and withdrawn. I'm scared for her. I try to avoid my fears since she really doesn't have a "fear" of the dentist as of yet. She...

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I have to share a pic of my son I took today. He is truly a blessing and I love him to pieces.

I'm proud to announce the birth of my son, Leo Craig, born Aug. 31, 2007 at 12:10pm after a quick 5 1/2 hour labor. He is 22 inches long and a whopping 9 lbs.! My water broke early morning at 6:30am and by 7:30am, I was indeed getting uncomfortable! I called my midwife and unfortunately...

I am alive. :smile: Those of you that have been trying to get a hold of me, I'm sorry I haven't responded. I have been busy, but mostly it's because I'm deep in thought and quite distracted. I feel that I can't expose myself to some of the ptsd stuff right now. It's hard for me to be...

WARNING: If you plan on submitting your own mental imagery interview for assessment, DO NOT read the proceeding first, instead fill out your own interview first, then read these, so your current mental image is not skewed, resulting in a possible inaccurate emotional state being returned to you...

Christmas should be fun. Lots of food, gifts, and family conversation. Maybe even a game or two...It should even be relaxing! But, lordy, do I feel the pressure. In my family, there is quite a bit of pressure to bring good gifts to the ones we love. Too expensive, they make me feel...

Hello All. I'm going to take a break from the forum from now until thursday. It was suggested by my hubs and I'm willing to try it to see if I can get out of this funk. I'm on this site daily and in the chatroom pretty much every night. Maybe a break will be ok? Not saying it's going to be...

Job searching is hard. It's hard even with a perfect work record (something I don't have.) I have many holes in my work history when I needed time off to recover. My husband is so lucky. He has a nice job where he is wanted and needed and gets paid well for it. He doesn't have a degree in...

Just wanted to share that the worst (so far) part of parenthood is over! My two year old is officially potty trained....YES!!!!! Now, instead of cleaning her poo, I now have the priviledge of seeing her undies at her ankles while her cute little naked bum runs to the bathroom! I love it!

I hope to start this thread so that we can see how we are expressing ourselves in other ways. I think it's awesome to have creative outlets.... (Deep Breath) So, since this is my idea....I'll go first. These pics are from a recent mural I had done.. of a Hawaiian sunset for a young girl...

Well, my therapist said it. Got me thinking. She says it's not bad. Which I don't think it is. It triggered some memories and I think remembering is a good thing although it is a very painful process. Have any of you experienced this?

Just a poem I thought was good.

You know, I think I'm fairly healed, but I still hurt. Everyday. I still can't talk about it without tears. I can't think about it without fear. I still have sleepless nights (like tonight). Does it ever go away? Anyone out there that has been diagnosed with PTSD not have much emotion when...