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Junebug... thanks for making sense. You are right.

I very well could be and am most likely am running away. But really, why not roll the dice, one more time...

fought to wake up this morning. got a message from an online guru that there are no worries with me not being able to scale the financial hurtle of their insanely expensive program.. and that they had two people waiting anyway (because… I am sure they were waiting on me) You can’t bullshit an...

All I can do at this point is work on the next best things... daily readings centered around acceptance, meditations...

I get it. I have had to move my weekly therapy sessions to twice a month because United Health Care left the health care marketplace and it's no longer covered by any of the remaining plans. Money is extremely tight and I am going to have to scuttle this week's session because I don't have the...

Mama13, your friend asked. You gave her real and honest feedback. I would have given her the same feedback. You are following your instincts. I see no reason to doubt yourself. Hang in there.

Time will tell Christian and I know that doesn't make it easier. I am so glad you are getting help and I hope that she will follow your example.

Hey there Christian. Glad you are here and what you have said makes perfect sense. My situation is a little different than yours in the respect that my ex-partner ( I am the one who has PTSD) did things that kept me pretty highly triggered (having to do with trust and boundary issues between us...

Hodge, Did you find the process of applying for SSD difficult? The only reason I haven't is because I had imagined the process was next to impossible, especially for PTSD. My take on it was that I would have to be practically drooling in a bucket in order to qualify... am I incorrect in that...

Welcome AphexTwin. I hope you find the help that you need.

Welcome peacelovemusic I'm new here as well and have found the people here to be encouraging and helpful. I can certainly understand your aversion to counselors and hope that you can find the people that you need to surround yourself with.

@intothelight Thank you! I am very happy to be getting the answers and support for something that has a name and is real. I don't maintain any illusions of this being easy but I do feel that much closer to being able to do something about it. As they say, knowledge is power!

I asked for what I needed today… preparing the launch pad for what is going to be hard-core work. Did work on my portfolio Explored new job possibilities with an open mind Making plans for fun with friends Spicy ginger beer on ice with a healthy twist of lime is pretty damned delicious...

I refuse to let PTSD be the thing that defines me and I refuse to let it take me down I want a life, good one… where I am freely able to love and be loved I am now able to identify what one of these cycles look like. What is real and what isn’t. What triggers me and why it triggers me. It is a...

So will I!! :)

Thank you Gizmo. It's a start.

Day #6 - out of the rain When I get majorly triggered and the tapes start playing, usually I'll start in "fight" mode. I'll lash out and then I go into "flight" mode and remove myself entirely from the situation. I run away and go completely into the hole. I live alone and my boyfriend does not...

There is no forcing it. You will come to it when you are ready. It is all about finding the safe space/time to do it.

I have only had one full-on visual FB. It came out of nowhere while I was in the middle of a conversation with a friend and my face must have registered it because she was concerned. It had to do with violent trauma that I had suffered close to that time period (30+ years ago) and it was as if...

Yes, I get it entirely. I was raised in a family where I was not allowed to access or release my emotions. I had such tight control that as I was being yelled at for something that I didn't do as a 10-year-old, I started to bleed out my nose. The pressure had to come out, somehow. We aren't...

1. worried that I am slipping into that hole again. 2. am I able to work? I need to because I am running out of time. 3. wondering if I will ever mentally or physically be able to race bikes again. 4. wondering if I’ll be able to deal with people and uncontrolled outside stimulation again. 5...

Good afternoon everyone. I am new to the group and received my official diagnosis a couple of weeks ago after about a year of therapy. The diagnosis was the light-bulb moment that I needed to bring everything into clear view. The interesting part is that now when I become triggered, I am able to...