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Had an amazing session the other day. I brought up how this strange sensation I get on my feet sometimes happened twice in the past week. This is the first time I brought it up to her as I didn't really know what it was or thought it would be weird to mention. When the feeling hits me, it feels...

I agree with rightkindofme that admitting it was abusive would mean they would need to accept some fault, so it is easier to pretend everything was fine. I know it really sucks getting that kind of response because I have, too, from my mom. When I had a family session with her in therapy, she...

I have had a couple memories pop up. One was when I was in junior high, maybe high school and I was sad that my younger brothers friend started dating someone because I was crushing on him. During this time, and some other times I was feeling sad over something, I would put on black make-up...

I remembered a memory, not sure if it was totally blocked, or if it just came back to me. During picture day senior year, I wore this blue longer than half sleeve shirt and my mom wasn't happy about it. It didn't cover all of my arms and I had some self-injury marks on my forearm. I felt like...

I guess I should add about my huge trigger in therapy about a month ago, especially since my therapist responded to the thoughts it brought up, a memory. It started by my therapist asking how my family responded to me when I expressed I was angry. She knows that I don't like to express anger...

Thank you, I guess I never really thought about reminding myself that it is safe to feel and express now, when I feel numb. I will try all of the suggestions. I may have made it through the numbness as I went to the movies yesterday and the annie trailer made me want to break down and cry...

I have been feeling very numb the past couple of weeks and would like suggestions on how to get feelings back. I have felt myself going through the motions and acting unconsciously, you know smiling, or laughing when needed. And another difference is I can't feel my body as much. Which I...

I finally mentioned it in therapy today and she said if it happens again, if I am alone to let myself act it out, let myself scream. I know she said the word cathersis (?) and said there is something good about it.

I ended up having my appointment this morning since she was booked Monday. On Monday night, whatever was going on, finally seemed to pass and I was able to counter the thoughts and feel some sort of relief from it. I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders, realized how grounded I felt (instead of...

Thank you for the replies. I will respond at some point, but right now the feelings and thoughts have come back and it is hard for me to think any other way right now. I do have an appointment tomorrow since I procrastinated and didn't cancel, so I guess I will be talking about it with her again.

That makes sense. Thank you for sharing. I will be bringing it up in my next session.

I noticed this new thing in the past month. First, the way I cried started to change. It used to be silent crying, with tears dripping down my face. I think I could be pretty dissociated during these, drifting in and out of being in my mind and in reality. Then it started to change to loud...

I had a hard session a couple days ago. I felt really upset. It still feels pretty foggy, but I will try to explain what happened. I guess I want to know if I am over reacting/wrong in how I feel. I am pretty sure we were talking about emotions and it led to her asking if anything bad...

When I weaned off of Zoloft, after my last does I took, I felt sick for about a week with the "flu-like symptoms". Feeling crumby and dizzy. For the next month or so, I experienced these brain zaps. I was worried they would never stop, but they finally did.

I can relate a lot tothe feelings of wanting to know what happened and feeling jealous of others how seem to have many memories popping up. I have struggled and beat myself up over it. I have also felt frustrated because of it. But I agree with others, at least now, that you will remember when...

I was watching Glee today and remembered something. It was the episode where Mr. Shoester was getting married. It was the part when the flower bouquet was thrown and Rachel caught it. I remembered when I was at a wedding when I was younger. I believe it was a relative that we didn't see too...

I was out taking a walk today. At some point I was thinking about my dad and the one good memory I remember from when I was younger. It was playing monopoly with him on vacation. But I felt resistance, thinking, I don't like to think of him as being nice. That it meant if he was a nice, he was...

I disagree with this statement/opinion. I was complimented quite a bit when I was in junior high/high school, but I find it very awkward and uncomfortable when complete strangers compliment me. Well, just males actually. I find it creepy and uncomfortable. There are also times when I think it...

Yesterday I had a really hard time at work. There is a new thing where if we are late on fulfilling online orders, everyone working at the time gets in trouble. I have been coming to work feeling anxious because of it. When I arrived at work, the two telxons we had were being used by other...

I think a new trigger emerged. It happened at least two-three times within two days this week. I was exiting my car and there was a taxi next to me. The driver (?) was in the backseat talking on the phone, leaning forward between the two front seats. The windows were up, so I couldn't hear...

I always read that people caution against worries about being retraumitized. Mainly in therapy, if someone doesn't respond right, it can cause more damage than good. This has got me thinking what my therapist wants me to do outside of therapy. If someone is angry, to go towards it instead of...

This morning at work, I had a big stress. I work in retail in the electronic department and was working freight. I had my cart of merchandise behind the counter and was the only one in the department since the other guy was pulled to another department. I helped a customer, then went back to...

About a month and a half ago, I took a break from therapy. I felt myself closing down. I really like her, but my brain started saying, don't trust her, she is going to think you are crazy if you open up, she is going to say you are too emotional. Remember your last therapist? Remember the...

This week, when falling asleep, I remembered something that happened over the summer when I went to the residential treatment. It has popped into my head at least twice this week and I started to cry, so I figured I should journal about it. Something came up, maybe a memory or just a...

Thanks gizmo for sharing and relating to what I have experienced. Makes me feel less alone and understood. I have felt some of this when remembering my father. It is hard for me because I look back and remember myself as this strong girl who fought back. But I do know I felt hurt and unloved...