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Sorry for not replying @The Albatross It is my last but I have been too unwell in my head to put it there. I have hidden my struggle from those around me these last few weeks but my physical health has been bad which has meant a slide in my mental health to.

I lay on my side. Appreciative of the peace in the dark. The door is blocked shut. I hate it in here but at the same time at least when here I'm not being hurt. The darkness is too much for me but for once he hasn't blocked the light under the door. I'm thankful for that. I can get some air and...

She's going to pick me up from the hospital tomorrow if I can come home. It's more than I deserve. I should just disappear. Everyone would be happy without me.

So life has recently taken an up for me. I've moved back in with my dad. I have a new job. I'm happy. Then on Wednesday I was driving to work, I had been bleeding heavily since 2am but I had held it back with regular towel changes and visits to the loo. Sadly I started severely haemorrhaging...

Hi everyone, I've not been on in a long time. Everything has spiralled and I'm just starting to come out. I have recently found talking is difficult. If I put myself in to work mode I am generally ok but at work I am in control. Outside of work I struggle to speak to the point I have given up...

Thank you @joeylittle it happened Monday. I have spoken to the police, my therapist is supoorting me and my friends too. I love my boy. He is amazing. If it wasn't for him it would have been so much worse.

6 years of safety. I'd begun to live again. I'd even begun to love and then he came, on Monday. His anger was clear. How dare I run from him in town the past week. He shoves me and calls me names. No one is nearby to hear as my face collides with my car. I land on the floor but only briefly...

In the end she seemed best when I held her but didn't say anything. It meant I had to quell my desire to ask questions and try to explain. I've just had lunch with her and she seems much happier. I was more comfortable around her to.

Sorry @Dee Morris I think I may have mostly been venting but hoping someone might have some advice. I am in individual therapy for PTSD. My partner refuses any form of therapy for herself. She does push away and want to disappear. When she is at home I let her vent at me via message then let her...

Thank you both @FridayJones I am really hoping you are right. She wants to stay away because she hates seeing me afraid of her but I keep trying to say to her that I need her there for me to move on. I need her around and not hurting me for me to realise nothing bad will come of it. I love her...

My partner has been struggling a lot lately. Over the last year we have grown close until the relationship moved further. She has been going through a lot with a lot of pain related to her menstrual cycle. She is finally pain free due to an implant but is now facing the likelihood of a...

When I'm hyper iguana I can't control my eyes. It's like they are pointing two different ways at once.

According to my auto correct! I was having a bad day and tried to tell my friend I was struggling with hyper vigilance but my new, untrained, phone decided to change it to iguana. I only noticed once I sent it. The ensuing laughter it caused really helped my day! I thought I'd share.

I used to work with wolves and have been involved in hand raising a litter. They are my absolute favourite animal. So amazing.

Things have moved in further with my friend. I have now used the L word. Not something I ever thought I would feel. I have never trusted someone so much. I am so glad I have though. This is such a great feeling to finally feel safe in another persons company, to want that interaction, to want to...

Mine is. I am by fortunate to fall within the coverage area for our local Veterans service. Although my trauma is not combat related they do treat people with other causes of PTSD. My therapist has a lot of experience with both EMDR and talk therapies. I count myself as very very lucky to have...

I have never had consensual sex with a man. Never. All my experiences have been forced. Just lately I started getting closer to a female friend of mine. We have got really really close and I have to say it is the safest I have ever felt while having sex. It was a really gradual build up and all...

I have to go back to work tomorrow. I don't want to. I have had a great week off. It I has had it's ups and downs but I really don't want to go back to work. I can feel my apprehension rising and myself shutting down. It has been a busy week today and yesterday I took in five new family...

@JEKBreatheandBelieve 7 is a good age to be having a dental. They are still young. They won't mind you being late home as they will be busy sleeping it all off. They will want cuddles later though I am sure.

Try not to worry although I know it is hard. I have known many cats from 10 years old to 18 years old go in for dentals and all have come out fine. The are normally a bit dribbly afterwards and dopey but with some soft food and care they are back to their old selves pretty quickly. How old are...

I haven't written in while. Tonight I have the evening on my own to myself so I thought I would come here. I have put my music on and got myself a cup of tea. The dogs are settled on the furniture apart from Malcolm who is chewing a hoof on his bed in the kitchen. The quail are running around...

I am open about mine to a point. I will tell people what I am diagnosed with if I feel they are understanding, I am lucky in that most people I know are but I will not say why I have it. I will even sit down and discuss within reason how it affects me so that they might understand better.

I have recently taking to playing the 2048 game on my phone. That really helps so calm me and my phone is always with me. I also have periods where I cannot speak. My friend is very good at reading my body language to understand what I am trying get across. She is great. If not I use my phone...

Thank you @Notsowild Sorry I haven't replied sooner. Been a busy few days. My meeting went well though. They basically back tracked on everything and my friend and I got an ideal opportunity to push our opinions on the issues with the centre at the moment due to the change of management roll...

Tomorrow is D-Day, I find out if I get to keep my job. I hope I have done enough to save myself but for the first time ever I will be putting my foot down and asking for accommodations. I have worked my backside off these last five weeks and have suffered severely in the evenings because if it...