I feel like in general we share an overview of our therapy sessions. The things we worked on. Key insights. Aha moments. Some things in detail
On the one hand I think my partner would greatly appreciate me breaking up with her considering what happened. I don’t think I would say specifics...
Honestly, I know he would handle it really well. Even if it hurts on some level. I want to share. I feel like it’s a secret but I’m willing to bury it to save him any stress. I will forget about it eventually.
I feel like it negatively impacted things with us for a short period of time. I’ve...
Broke up with my therapist officially. I started seeing my old one on zoom that moved away before the pandemic. Now I can see her again because of zoom!
I was seeing this newer therapist since right before the pandemic. I’ve never broken up with a therapist but I have felt very uncomfortable...
Thanks for sharing that you can relate. I feel so alone with those behaviors. Like a monster in a cave.
As an update things are better. He has made some changes and so have I. We are both committed to making things work.
Tonight while working with a young part in therapy I started to sing “baby mine” to it. I only remembered one line and couldn’t place the song or voice. Initially I was humming it to my very young child self.
Later I looked up to line and saw it was from the original Dumbo movie and I...
More nightmares tonight and waking up sweating. I’m on the couch now trying to cool off. They weren’t even bad nightmares but something was so scary.
I was avoiding a room with scary breathing tiptoeing to my room. I thought it was my partner in our bed when I got there but maybe not. Started...
Thanks for the reply!!
My problem with being triggered at this point in my recovery is sorting out what is distortion and//or what maybe a red flag or legitimate issue that also happens to trigger me. So challenging. After years of abuse I have a hard time trusting myself. With triggers I get...
Yes, I agree. And thank you. I set lots of boundaries and have been saying my needs. He has decided to take a break from that recovery friend since I just keep getting triggered. It has come to a point where if I keep having to deal with severe triggers every week I won’t be able to continue. It...
I know I’m really stressed when I start having nightmares again. My BF had to wake me up twice last night. Someone was trying to kill me. They were hurting me. Scaring me. I was offering them money to stop.
Then I thought I saw my cat and started saying “kitty kitty” in a little kids voice in...
This is the truth. Very vulnerable post. Please go easy on me.
Trying to find ways to manage my inner critic while in a new relationship. Makes me very insecure. Says lots of body shaming stuff, ugly etc. Goes on to say he’s not really in it despite proof otherwise.
I get into bad behaviors...
I see what your point is. Thanks for sharing!
Thanks for the reply. I’m trying to reach this point. I’m learning to step away and self soothe when I have my abandonment triggers. Sometimes it takes awhile. I have someone willing to be there when I’m ready. I’ve never had that so it’s scary. My...
Is anyone else dating or in a relationship with someone with trauma too? How do you make it work? I feel like my partner and I are just in some kind of trigger cycle that won’t break. I’m exhausted. I’m in therapy and so is he. Both in our 40’s. What’s your story?
Thanks. I had therapy and I feel better. I was just in that abandonment wound place of pain and no escape. I think I see what is going on now in a much clearer way.
Hi everyone! I’m 46 and have CPTSD with a history of childhood abuse, neglect, abandonment trauma and all that goes with it. I was married for 10 yrs to a partner that didn’t do any self work and was an alcoholic and emotionally abusive at times. I’ve done loads of trauma work (EMDR,IFS) and...