A Sign... Getting Better

[Thinkingman85]

I have been on Prozac for about five weeks. Also, I have been going to weekly therapy session for six weeks. Since day one, I have been getting better. Every time I take Prozac, my mood elevates. It's been like this continually since day one. With an elevated mood, I'm able to understand my traumas better and process them.

Therapy is helping me open up. I feel like I may be getting close to normal again. The best way I can explain it is when I looked into the mirror today in my bathroom. I remember more than five years ago that I would look in the bathroom mirror and stare at myself with the unconscious belief that I was normal. There was no impediment that stopped me. Today, I was looking at myself, and without any effort, I had the feeling that I was normal. This only lasted for a few seconds. Next, my brain sent a response that shunned me away from looking at myself as if I was normal. Acknowledging that this happened is showing that I am getting better. Hopefully, sooner or later, my subconscious will be in tune and not cause me to shun away from believing that I am 100% okay.

I am going to continue on the path that I'm on. The line will be crossed and it seems scary that it will be. However, I have to keep walking.

 

[Bone Gryphon]

Hello there, I've been on Prozac for about 9 months now. It has made a massive difference in my life as well. I am hoping to recover completely from this as well. I feel the same the medication allows me to justify what has happened and move past my past.

I feel there are times when it is very tough. But I've stayed positive and will continue to do so. I pray that I can beat this. I'm sure on your journey you will have the ups and downs of life. Best wishes and have a good journey on your healing pathways.

 

[ms spock]

It is always nice to feel that you are improving Thinkingman85, I am pleased for you.

 

[Sazza]

I am so pleased to hear you are doing better and also so pleased to here that you are doing better on the prozac. I am due at doctors at end week and was going to ask to give prozac a go, reading this helps with the decision to give something else a go.

I really hope things keep moving forward for you :).

 

[Thinkingman85]

I feel there are times when it is very tough. But I've stayed positive and will continue to do so. I pray that I can beat this. I'm sure on your journey you will have the ups and downs of life. Best wishes and have a good journey on your healing pathways.

I can relate. It feels painful every time I'm getting better. I have this feeling that I don't deserve it, but the Prozac is continuing to help me alleviate these thoughts. Do you go through a similar experience?

 

[Bone Gryphon]

Yeah the level of distress caused by these memories gradually decreases. The edge goes away in a sense.
Sometimes though the distress comes back to bite. But Prozac allows your mind the sanity to work through it.

 

[Lady Vet]

Acknowledging that this happened is showing that I am getting better.

What an awesome post! It's inspiring for the rest of us along our own journeys to read that you are finding a way back to feeling normal...and I am so thrilled to read about it! Well done! And thanks for sharing :)

 

[Lady Vet]

It feels painful every time I'm getting better. I have this feeling that I don't deserve it

Oh my goodness...I can absolutely relate to this. It's a triple journey (for me), first to make the progress. Then to feel good about making the progress. Then to allow myself (feel worthy) to feel the good. Crazy, but true :)