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UnicornSightings
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Fantastic comment and no, I appreciate the honesty! I think you’re kind of right. And while I DO know he does whatever he can for his clients, I DO feel extra special and cared for. But I think he wants that? Like he wants me to feel cared for and I do. I really like your idea of sending him a text the day of the session asking him to broach this if I don’t. I think a lot of what I get out of the in-person sessions is the connection through humor that we share. It’s a space I can be that way and also have someone care for me. But the way the sessions are now, there’s no forward momentum. We are starting EMDR soon (have done a couple things so far) so there will be that. I was initially thinking (when he proposed the messaging option) that 30 min is more in my budget. But really, I do think you’re maybe right with this. I’m trying to get this deep need met and seeing his offer as exactly what I’ve needed my whole life. Surely that won’t end badly lol.
So, I want to connect. He says I can. I want more than just our session cause I don’t open up much. Maybe something like we discussed long ago where I write him an email and he doesn’t reply or rather just acknowledges he got it. I could live with that. I could live well with that. Because I can’t journal and bring stuff in and read it. I tried and can’t. So if he is aware of some stuff and it’s agreed that he bring stuff up if I don’t start talking about it that sounds like a way to work at it, without maybe the dependency that I really want to avoid. Do you think a sorta long email with no response needed is ok? I feel bad making him do that, like I’m adding to his work. I know he won’t charge me. Actually what started this was a couple weeks ago I emailed begging (practically) him to charge me for emails so I could write the things I was feeling without feeling like shit about it.
I appreciate you looking out for my best interest. I knew I’d get honest feedback here and that it rarely is “great idea, Unicorn! Nothing bad will come from that!” Lol.
I would love to be less nervous there. Just last week I brought that up again. And my fear too is that I’ll be 2 people then, right? Messaging me and in-person me and that the union of 2 I want won’t happen.@UnicornSightings Maybe it could be an empowering experience to gradually learn ho...
I feel like that’s what we’ve been doing. For months. Just getting a good rapport and trying to get to a place where the anxiety subsides... I have these moments between the jokes. The jokes are so important for me. They add this comfort and I can say something real for a moment. And then a joke again. And he lets me. He likes me humor and had admitted maybe he needs to work on not letting me resort to that as much as well. But I AM funny there. Like the humor light turns on there, it’s pretty cool. Seems a good discussion about this will have to take place. But HOW?!! That’s the thing. I feel like bring cards to session with questions I want him to ask me. Do you think that would be weird?Just to add having read @NinjaWolf reply above...perhaps there is some work to be d...
I think I may be excited about the idea of opening up via hiding. You have made some good points!This...Is perfectly normal with a new T, sometimes it takes months to be able to open up. Especially if w...
Really?? That the thing! Will it help me go deeper or will it just be avoiding the in-person anxiety?I get how sometimes communicating over text can be easier for some. Personally I don’t see it being a huge issue se...
I really do want more of his time and attention. I think that could be bad for me ultimately.
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