An Alter Tried To Kill Me

[Deleted member 28403]

So, after a hellish night that I do not really remember, but others do... I wake up in absolute panic a bit before 5 am, from a bunch of nightmares.

As I woke up, I realize a pain around the neck. Source quickly comprehended. There is a weighted bag around my neck, while I'm laying on my back, and it's pulling downwards.

I found it somewhat harder to breathe with it there.

Also, over the night, it made my neck hurt quite a lot.

I don't know what to do anymore. During the night, others remember me saying bad stuff and similar, and being completely out of my mind. Trying to get off the bed and falling straight onto my face, all sorta of babbeling and voiced suicidal ideation.

I had a bunch of nightmares, and the night was terrible. Past few days have been chaos.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm terrified. I don't know what to do anymore.

 

[hodge]

:hug:s.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

:hug:s I wish i had advise but dont have alters.

 

[Ocean5]

Big *hug* Sael. Glad you are still with us.

 

[hodge]

Sael, you're taking an anti-depressant, aren't you? Suicidal ideation and more are side effects that people your age are very vulnerable to. You need to tell your doctor about this.

 

[Changing4Best]

Can you go to a hospital?

 

[Ronin]

Seconding.

Is hospitalization a safe option?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

"Thirding" the hospital thing.

 

[BlueDream]

I am so sorry seal, hugs for you!!

 

[Changing4Best]

Yes, Hugs for you from me too, Sael, we love you!

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I would gladly go inoatient for a while, but right now, not an option, I have a job and stuff I gotta do, and being inpatient would mean no access to the internet or anything or up to a few months, depending on how long they decide to keep me, which probably wouldn't make mytate any better, due to a major lack of support in such a case...

 

[hodge]

Sael, if you are on an anti-depressant, at least let your doctor know what happened. If I were your parent, which I'm not, I would say hospitalization is a bigger priority right now than a job or anything else you've got to do. Just sayin'.