Anxiety Getting In The Way Of Plans- Guilt

[Spiderallis]

I told myself that today would be a great day to plant my garden. Instead, I'm jumping whenever I see motion outside the window and too anxious to go outside. There's pretty flowers and yummy veggies getting root-bound in the little pots because I need to get them in the ground. Once it's dark I'll go out and water them, when the neighborhood kids aren't playing and making noises which startle me.

It's hard not to feel guilty, I had a goal and I didn't meet it. I let myself down. I let the plants down. The weeds are winning and I know the kids are just being kids, they make noise while having fun. I shut the blinds so I won't jump out of my skin when they ride past on their bikes. Trying to remember what my T said, thought/belief/reaction something... when I find that paper I'm hanging it on the fridge.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi Spiderallis, I think you need the treatment today. Alot of pampering, what ever it takes with out the guilt.The days pick you, you do not pick the days. It sounds like it is your turn to take it easy. You are having troubles with today, so what do you have to lose. Screw guilt.

You will get your plants in the ground, only not today. If you do not have to go anywhere or do anything, how about some lighthearted comedies for distraction and diversion. And do not forget the handy comfort foods. A comfortable blanket and anything to block out the sound of the kids. TLC day ordered for you dear girl. You deserve it. I hope it will work out for you. Wishing you the very best. You are not alone. This is aday for others to have a treatment day. hugs.

 

[Spiderallis]

Thanks Gizmo, I took your advice before I read it! My favorite pj's are ready and waiting for after a long soak in a bubble bath. That's after the fresh cookies. Ok, ok, so there'll be more cookies after the bath... I turned on giant-kid mode, cookies, cartoons and maybe some coloring.

 

[Meadowsweet]

I'm glad you're looking after yourself. I call them blanket days. Sometimes they are needed.

 

[Spiderallis]

Made progress, not as much as I wanted but I got started. Getting better at dealing with the anxiety... just not sure what to do about the headache and exhaustion after I calm down.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

so sad that you have a headache and exhaustion. Sounds like you need more rest, at least until the headache is gone. The exhaustion will pass. I hope you will be getting around soon. I bought me a coloring book and some crayons and some gobstoppers today. I already colored one picture. It helped. You are full of good ideas. Thank you. Hugs.

 

[Spiderallis]

Thank you Gizmo, hugs back at ya! Most of my ideas came from grasping at straws before I knew or really accepted what I was dealing with. Guess I did okay, my T was pretty impressed with some of the things I came up with to get by untreated.