****HUGS******
Awful day today. He got angry with me last week because of my tone of voice. One wrong word, and I'm deleted from messenger, his email and blocked from texting. He says I've ruined his vacation and he's finished with me. Does anyone else just get SO sick sometimes of how little things can snowball into giant issues??
So, I cry and begin to come to terms with the fact he is gone for good... Then he's back. Yay, right? But as always there is a cost. His trust in me is depleted, I'm forced to start over. We have our first honest relationship talk in ages, and I feel like *maybe* we can move forward. We talk for about a half hour and I can tell he's starting to get stressed from his voice. He tells me the woman he's friends with, he's been tempted to sleep with and start a new relationship with. My bad behavior has pushed him away.
Buuuttt...he hasn't done it yet. He wants to try one last time with me. I acknowledge that sometimes I'm not perfect, far from it. But most of our issues come from his temper and lack of trust associated with his PTSD...which is untreated. I'm tired today. More than tired, worn to the bone. This stuff isn't easy!!! He wants to try but unless he is willing to put forth effort and acknowledge his part in our problems, I feel like it's doomed to failure.
But he wants to try. He's still faithful. That means something right?
I need a hug, and thought that maybe all you wonderful sufferers and supporters might need one too.
God bless each and every one of you today. *HUGS*
Awful day today. He got angry with me last week because of my tone of voice. One wrong word, and I'm deleted from messenger, his email and blocked from texting. He says I've ruined his vacation and he's finished with me. Does anyone else just get SO sick sometimes of how little things can snowball into giant issues??
So, I cry and begin to come to terms with the fact he is gone for good... Then he's back. Yay, right? But as always there is a cost. His trust in me is depleted, I'm forced to start over. We have our first honest relationship talk in ages, and I feel like *maybe* we can move forward. We talk for about a half hour and I can tell he's starting to get stressed from his voice. He tells me the woman he's friends with, he's been tempted to sleep with and start a new relationship with. My bad behavior has pushed him away.
Buuuttt...he hasn't done it yet. He wants to try one last time with me. I acknowledge that sometimes I'm not perfect, far from it. But most of our issues come from his temper and lack of trust associated with his PTSD...which is untreated. I'm tired today. More than tired, worn to the bone. This stuff isn't easy!!! He wants to try but unless he is willing to put forth effort and acknowledge his part in our problems, I feel like it's doomed to failure.
But he wants to try. He's still faithful. That means something right?
I need a hug, and thought that maybe all you wonderful sufferers and supporters might need one too.
God bless each and every one of you today. *HUGS*
