My DV/rape trauma "ended" about 9 months ago. Two days ago I had resurfaced memory of child sex abuse. i am here to tell you I'm doing fabulously! This after 6 weeks at Sierra Tucson, a few months in a sober living home, prolonged exposure therapy, CODA meetings, equine therapy and new friendships with other women trauma survivors. I am off benzos and only take medication for bipolar stability.
I have been invited to consider a board of directors role for a non-profit organization. I will soon have a new apartment, then will look for a job. And I'm not afraid of any of this. A budding relationship with a kind man who knows about my history (well not the childhood stuff) and treats me like a princess.
A long way from non-stop dissociating, agoraphobia, severe depression, hatred of men and wanting to die. My friend who felt she could not be in my life has returned and said she has never seen me better in the 40 year she has known me! My brother who said the same is slowly coming around. I truly have a new lease on life. And if it were't for my horrible experience, I would not have been brought to my knees and forced to make changes in my perceptions, world view, self view, view of my childhood.
There is hope if you put in the necessary work!
I have been invited to consider a board of directors role for a non-profit organization. I will soon have a new apartment, then will look for a job. And I'm not afraid of any of this. A budding relationship with a kind man who knows about my history (well not the childhood stuff) and treats me like a princess.
A long way from non-stop dissociating, agoraphobia, severe depression, hatred of men and wanting to die. My friend who felt she could not be in my life has returned and said she has never seen me better in the 40 year she has known me! My brother who said the same is slowly coming around. I truly have a new lease on life. And if it were't for my horrible experience, I would not have been brought to my knees and forced to make changes in my perceptions, world view, self view, view of my childhood.
There is hope if you put in the necessary work!
