Sufferer Combat Ptsd For 4 Years

[Zsharp06]

Hello my name is Zach. I have been dealing with PTSD for about 4 years now. I deployed to Afghanistan in 09 and feel like I am living a nightmare. Everyday is a constant battle. I just recently started receiving treatment this past year and cannot seem to get out of this feeling. I need some help from peers. I truly do and I know it. I cannot kick this hopeless depressed feeling. It sucks. Well that is me I would be glad to talk to anyone here for some advice.

 

[Shorty]

Hi Zach, your not alone we are all in the same boat and i'm sure everyone will help you though this, whats the feeling you are having is it Anger.

have you asked for counseling cause that could help you in ways, but the main way is to bloke things out and put a wall around bad things that have happened this will be hard but it does work, and you can deal with the slowly but don't take to much on at once nice easy steps,

Just nice deep breathe's and happy thoughts and tell Yourself your in-control

Shorty

 

[Zsharp06]

Yes, I feel anger and guilt mostly. I am just always depressed. I never want to do anything that I used to enjoy. I have shut out everyone, but my wife and kids and occaisonaly block them out as well. My doc asked me how the guys that didn't make it home with us would want me to live. I responded to the fullest, as I know they would, but I am really having a hard time living. Nothing is enjoyable anymore and my wife and kids don't deserve this from me. I separate from the military in March and couldn't be any happier, but at the same time I feel like shit each and every day. I have come to hate being around people. I could spend all my time alone and be just fine.

 

[Shorty]

It does take small steps, parting the military was your first steps (good thing) now you have to concur the anger and the way i deal with it is thinking of the happy's day of my life i.e when your kids were born. with the bad memory's put that brick wall around it and it can not leave that brick wall and u can not see whats inside and then think of lots of people guarding that wall and helping you, so you dont have to put it away when it escapes they will do that for you.

 

[Sighs]

@Zsharp06 - have you joined the "sister" site mycombatptsd.com? Its for vets only - no supporters even.

My vet has been out for 4 years now. Being around people is still hard for him. He spends a lot of time hunting, fishing etc on his own.

If you wife is supportive of you try to accept that.

It does get better. You can get to a place where you enjoy life again. Hang in there!

 

[Seasounds]

@Zsharp06, Nice to have you here! Thanks for sharing your truth, a great place to start. I'm grateful for your service.

I'm not a Vet; from my perspective I can say that compassionate support, time, nature, structuring a peaceful life, and gentle therapy with meds, have got me through tough times. And everyone one is different.

I've always found (in doses that don't exacerbate my condition) that acknowledging and expressing my feelings, (no anger towards myself, but at the situation) makes it easier for lighter feelings to arise, and it makes it easier to focus on mundane things.

You can claim and know, that underneath the feelings, that you are as pure and good as your children, at their birth. It may take your brain some time to harmonize with that thought; and it is the truth.

Support, gratitude, and gentleness, to you.:x3:

 

[Zsharp06]

@Sighs no I have not joined that group but I most certainly will. My wife is accepting but there are times when I feel she deserves a more compassionate husband. I really dont show many emotions around her. I have trouble a lot of trouble being affectionate and lovey dovey

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the forum!

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

 

[Sarah542]

Hello , I'm sorry to hear that. I too have blocked people out. But the way forward is to open up to thse who you find it hard to. Although your wife may not undersatnd completely confide in her. Congratulations for leaving and for getting help. It is a big step that is scary. I too have the depressed hopelessness, unsettled and distaught some days. I have no idea how I deal with mine, probabbly complaining to anyone who will listen :L

 

[anthony]

Welcome to the forum... one vet to another.