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Hi my name is Emma. Two years ago I was diagnosed with PTSD after an active shooter situation. I didn’t even know I was suffering until 1 1/2 after the event happened. The shooting happened in DC while I was working as a legislative intern. I live in Alaska and want to pursue a career in politics. I’m now working for the state legislature in Juneau, but every time I enter the capitol I feel as though i’m entering my coffin. I cant help but feel suffocated and in constant danger. Additionally, due to the capitol riot in DC security has been upped. Every time
I see an armed officer I am triggered. I cant be near them for more than a minute without fearing for my life. I know they are there to protect me, but just seeing a gun triggers me. I’m terrified to talk to my boss out of fear of judgment or something worse and unknown, but honestly I go home every night an cry myself to sleep. We are two weeks into the session and I can’t see my therapist because it’s during work hours. I love my job, but I don’t want to suffer for 90 days. Any advice is welcome. And honestly, thanks for just listening. No one in my life understands. I am so alone sometimes.
I see an armed officer I am triggered. I cant be near them for more than a minute without fearing for my life. I know they are there to protect me, but just seeing a gun triggers me. I’m terrified to talk to my boss out of fear of judgment or something worse and unknown, but honestly I go home every night an cry myself to sleep. We are two weeks into the session and I can’t see my therapist because it’s during work hours. I love my job, but I don’t want to suffer for 90 days. Any advice is welcome. And honestly, thanks for just listening. No one in my life understands. I am so alone sometimes.