decided to be honest with Crisis line PD showed up at door

[whiteraven]

Meaning I might be willing able to talk with someone on the phone about what’s going on, but not to have them show up at my house AND still talk about what’s going on, much less leave and go somewhere else to talk to more people about what’s going on, etc.

No different really, that asking someone to bring a dish to a dinner as opposed to having them show up and try and cook the entire meal. Nope. I asked for ONE thing, not TWELEVE things. This much? Yes. That much? No.

Oh, so much this!

 

[Justmehere]

Instead of beating yourself up about not being fully forthright with 5 strangers who showed up, even if they were police and mobile crisis.... I think you should be damn proud for being honest with the crisis line.

 

[AJ45]

Instead of beating yourself up about not being fully forthright with 5 strangers who showed up, even if they were police and mobile crisis.... I think you should be damn proud for being honest with the crisis line.

well when you put it like that, 5 strangers showing up does sound ridic and I know intellectually i should feel happy proud that i was mostly honest with crisis line. but feeling i dont. but thank you.

ive been thinking about calling Mobile back and leaving voicemail saying i lied and things arent okay and i need help but WAY easier said then done, and its really hard to see point. things are so confusing and messed up i dont know up from down even though intellectually i should.

 

[Justmehere]

I think it’s a good idea to call back mobile crisis. They know people shut down when asking for help from time to time. And yeah, easy to say, hard to do...

Do you have any walk in crisis clinics in your area? Or maybe the ER? Those could be other options as well. I was so spooked once by the thought of mobile crisis coming to me, I took a cab to the ER.

If you are in the US, there are some resources in some areas for low cost counseling - you can call United Way via 211 on any US phone and they can help see if there are options in your area for help.
Keep reaching out.

 

[AJ45]

I think it’s a good idea to call back mobile crisis. They know people shut down when asking for help from time to time. And yeah, easy to say, hard to do...

Do you have any walk in crisis clinics in your area? Or maybe the ER? Those could be other options as well. I was so spooked once by the thought of mobile crisis coming to me, I took a cab to the ER.

If you are in the US, there are some resources in some areas for low cost counseling - you can call United Way via 211 on any US phone and they can help see if there are options in your area for help.
Keep reaching out.

ive been Hospitalized twice once by old school counselor then when i went to ER both were 5150's and it was horrible first time was county place just REALLY horrific, second place i ironically got hurt there adn got sent back to ER to get face glued, then back topsych ward i think they felt really bad so let me go, i walked home.

been to low cost counseling twice first time after a year therapist said couldnt help because of self harm even though she knew about it from start, second therapist disappeared.....been through two rape advocates in less than year because they keep leaving or changing positions/roles........

 

[Teasel]

How are you? :hug:

 

[Bry]

Hi I hope you are ok.
I have been there. I’m currently in touch with a suicide helpline because of ongoing ideations. They have been great in getting through horrific moments/hours/days. I also worry about the shame but I have given my real name etc

 

[StellaBlue]

I had a similar experience several years ago - only I live on the line between two counties - so two sets of police and two sets of medics (plus a firetruck) - all very confused about who had jurisdiction. I did manage to get them to leave - that time. The second time (over a year later), it was only a 'wellness' check - but when I refused to go, the social worker I had been speaking with filed a court ordered assessment the following morning and I was picked up at work by the police, hand-cuffed and taken for an assessment - which turned into a week long stay at a psych hospital (due to a serious of incredibly stupid snafus) ... which is why I will never, ever call a crisis line again. (Sorry if this isn't helpful) (hope you are feeling better)