Do You Believe You Were Bound For Ptsd Before You Suffered A Trauma?

[Ohajo]

I have a hard time thinking I was ever on course for a normal life, I can't remember a time that I didn't feel different than the rest. I wasn't unpopular or rejected, I had my strengths and I fit in with others on the superficial areas, and I had some failures and rejections and was limited socially to a degree also- pretty much a normal kid suffering the normal growing up knocks and shakeups.

But inside I always felt that I was headed for the forbidden zones, I was on the fringe and tried to hide it and learned to cover it up with lies and false personality traits. Only I knew how far from center I was getting, and how difficult it was to maintain the juggling act.

I think that by age 7 or 8 I was aware that I wasn't going to be normal, and by high school I was collecting my traumatic experiences and becoming very sure that I would be effected by them in some large negative way, eventually.

Years before I knew anything about clinical depression or PTSD I was aware that I was headed for it. Anyone else?

 

[Cuhofev]

Can't say I relate to that, nope.

 

[Esab]

I didn't predict all my trauma, but I did have this sense about my life that was going to be different. I hate the idea of destiny, but I know that I was always meant to process things. Like somehow I was given all this **it to deal with because I was one of the few people who was able to handle it.

 

[Velad]

Nope, can't say that I felt that way. That type of thing didn't even cross my mind.

 

[Vejucu]

Like somehow I was given all this **it to deal with because I was one of the few people who was able to handle it.

There is a school of thought that says that people are only given what they can handle, so someone with a more sensitive disposition would never be able to deal with the same stuff someone else would. I think this is true to an extent. It does open up discussion about the existence of the soul and God.

 

[Oguc]

I can relate to what you wrote; then again, my abuse started from birth. Anyhow, I had always felt the way you seem to have felt, and I only remembered and became aware of all my previous abuse at around age 18.

My therapist said two weeks ago that PTSD can be inherited and that recent research has proved this. I am going to send her an e-mail right now asking for info on the study. I hope I did not misunderstand her.

 

[Vejucu]

I'd like to read some evidence of that as well. Not sure I but it at this stage...

 

[Vejucu]

I meant 'buy it'...dammit, no edit function here.

 

[Avasi]

Sent the e-mail and will post once I have the info.

 

[Avasi]

Okay, so that was fast. Already got an e-mail from my therapist. She has not title of the study but said the following:

As far as she remembers it was a study on children who were born to mothers who were pregnant with them during 9/11 and who showed PTSD symptoms from the day they were born. Also, another group of mothers was part of the study (who were not involved in 9/11) which was/has been medium/long. Also, further experiences were taken into consideration.

I'll try to find it.

 

[Vejucu]

Are you Avasi now Oguc?:D

 

[Vejucu]

Hey, I'm vejicu now. I was cuhofev at the start of this thread.