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Okay well first, thanks for reading. I'm just going to go ahead and tell you about me, and if this sounds consistent with PTSD it would be great if you could say. Thanks :)
Four years ago, my father attempted suicide. I was quite young at the time and soon after I stopped being able to feel things as well as I could before. I also lost the ability to empathise and express feelings well.
Less than a year ago, he tried again and since then, it's been sort of running through my mind 24/7. I wouldn't say these thoughts are unwanted but I know it's unhealthy to obsess like this. He frequently says things like "you'd be better if I weren't here", which seems sort of like a threat to me.He was an alcoholic who still occasionally goes out and drinks. He gets very violent and paranoid- I once had to stop him from severely injuring my mother. He takes my things and calls me insane when I get angry.
My parents have fought constantly since I was very young. My father has moved out (and back in) three times. After every fight he screams at me, in front my mom, "This is over! We hate each other!" and proceed to calls her every horrible name he can think of. I have also been in many car crashes in my life, one of which during I remember thinking I was going to die.
So, after all of that, here are my symptoms (in list format);
-I have had scary nightmares increasingly often
-Loss of interest in activities and life in general
-Emotional numbness and detachment
-I don't expect to have a normal life. At the start of everyday, the idea of the end of that day seems like some sort of dream or fairytale.
-I actively stop myself from sleeping at night, e.g. sitting up reading random articles on the internet
-I get angry very easily
-I can't concentrate anywhere near as well as I once could
-I've been told I seem more paranoid
-I'm very "jumpy"
Please respond, I'm starting to feel really guilty. This is really badly affecting my mum and I love her and don't want to upset her. I want to get help, but I first want to have some idea of where I stand.
Four years ago, my father attempted suicide. I was quite young at the time and soon after I stopped being able to feel things as well as I could before. I also lost the ability to empathise and express feelings well.
Less than a year ago, he tried again and since then, it's been sort of running through my mind 24/7. I wouldn't say these thoughts are unwanted but I know it's unhealthy to obsess like this. He frequently says things like "you'd be better if I weren't here", which seems sort of like a threat to me.He was an alcoholic who still occasionally goes out and drinks. He gets very violent and paranoid- I once had to stop him from severely injuring my mother. He takes my things and calls me insane when I get angry.
My parents have fought constantly since I was very young. My father has moved out (and back in) three times. After every fight he screams at me, in front my mom, "This is over! We hate each other!" and proceed to calls her every horrible name he can think of. I have also been in many car crashes in my life, one of which during I remember thinking I was going to die.
So, after all of that, here are my symptoms (in list format);
-I have had scary nightmares increasingly often
-Loss of interest in activities and life in general
-Emotional numbness and detachment
-I don't expect to have a normal life. At the start of everyday, the idea of the end of that day seems like some sort of dream or fairytale.
-I actively stop myself from sleeping at night, e.g. sitting up reading random articles on the internet
-I get angry very easily
-I can't concentrate anywhere near as well as I once could
-I've been told I seem more paranoid
-I'm very "jumpy"
Please respond, I'm starting to feel really guilty. This is really badly affecting my mum and I love her and don't want to upset her. I want to get help, but I first want to have some idea of where I stand.
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