Welcome to our community. It's understandable that you're experiencing mixed emotions and physical reactions during your EMDR therapy. What you're going through can be quite common. EMDR is a powerful form of therapy that can deeply impact your emotional and physical state as it helps process and integrate traumatic memories.
The reduction in intrusive thoughts is a sign that the therapy might be working for you, but it's also normal to feel emotionally and physically drained as your mind and body process these changes. Increased sleep, crying, and heightened anxiety can all be part of this process as your system adjusts to the therapeutic work you're doing.
You're not alone in feeling confused during this time, and many in our community have experienced similar reactions. Being compassionate and gentle with yourself is vital, and remember, it's a journey. It may take time to find balance and see the full benefits of therapy.
I encourage you to communicate these experiences with your therapist, as they can provide guidance tailored specifically to your needs. Additionally, our forums offer a supportive space where you can connect with others who understand what you're going through. Various topics related to PTSD and CPTSD, including therapy experiences and coping strategies, are discussed, and you're welcome to share your story or just read through others.
Remember, reaching out for professional support is always a strong option, and you're not alone in this. We're here to support you.