Emdr Lifestyle

[Simplistic]

I am currently in treatment using EMDR. After my first session I had some pretty bizarre night terrors. I spoke with my T about them in detail and we dealt with them. I felt much better and at ease. However since my last session I have been making some poor emotional choices and I'm not sure what has lowered my threshhold on what I firmly believe and have never allowed my self to behave this way.

I guess to sum it up I'm a very conservative person and grounded in my faith. Although this week I feel very disconnected from who I am as a devoted mom and Christian. I have allowed my self to do things I would never do. I broke covents I had wit God obstaining from sex after my divorce, cussing, going to a club. I do not know where this lack of self respect is coming from?

I've always valued my morals and my conduct no matter what I have been through in life. I have vowed not to be the victim and to break the cycle. However, I am acting very selfish and I don't care. It boggles me that I know that I'm doing this and there is a feeling if I just don't care.

Has anyone else experienced this while going through EMDR? I know what I'm doing is not right but I just don't care on the inside. Although on the out side I'm the good girl everyone knows??? Can this be disaccociation?

 

[Sick of Fear]

Very interesting. I haven't been through EMDR, but am highly considering it. I think it's safe to say that everyone behaves differently than how they feel they should, especially during times of confusion or trauma. I could be completely off base, but I'm curious if perhaps when you initially experienced your trauma, you were maybe so focused on one certain behavior, that now that you're facing it in a new light, these new behaviors are surfacing? Like I said, I could be completely off, and I'm not an expert by any means. It was just a thought. I wish you well on your road to recovery.

 

[therapybankrupt]

The night terrors after first session yes I experienced this. Never had the things you experienced after the second session. Unless it is alters you are explaining I do not have a clue what's happening? Contact the therapist. You are putting yourself at risk. I am wishing you some peace. You may need to go back and do more preparation before moving forward again with the EMDR? I had to go back and do inner child work after the first EMDR session cause it did not go well. The extra preparation for more than one trauma was necessary. It is moving well now. EMDR is not easy but what I experience is tolerable.

 

[rightkindofme]

I have had to back off from EMDR because it was causing such emotional turbulence that I was suicidal/hysterical for two or three days after each time I saw my shrink. No bueno. So I'm going back to talk therapy for a bit. *cross fingers*