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I can’t stop it
I’ve been having really intense flashbacks. And body memories. A lot of throwing up and for the first time in a long time I’ve lost control of my bladder. There will be nights were the ptsd flashbacks are so bad I have to sleep with a bucket by my head. And a towel between my legs. Becuase I can’t control my body. And it’s just so disempowering . My therapist is aware. And I’m just so so scared of people finding out and making fun of me.