Fighting/ Running For My Life (ptsd Bonfire)

[new gamma rays]

Can't really briefly break down the horrific last two and a half years of my life, but they've involved some violent confrontations and traumatic trips to hospital ER's. Five of them. yeah.

It started back in October of 2010 where my parents basically ambushed me with the help of this psychologist my mom had hired and told me I was going to the hospital if I didn't do xyz by this date. Freak out, mom escalated the situation, I fought back - involuntary trip to the ER. Very scary.

Two months later I was back there and got petitioned for involuntary psych treatment - basically because my mother had forced a confrontation again.

HELL. The kind they don't show on hbo shows or msnbc reality hours. Not yet at least. Four months of it. Basically I've been in a state of running for my life off and for the past two years it feels like, and its far from over. I'm in a group home now for no good reason other than that my parents did the same thing to me again a year ago exactly and the same result happened. Only I didn't get petitioned, but my parents had become my legal guardians the year before and because they f*cked up so much this time going back home wasn't a good option. So I'm stranded in a group home that drives me to the point of being suicidal and I don't know where to go.

I'm scared.

 

[NIKI]

I'm so sorry that is happening to you. I also have twice been involutary put in the hospital and it is the scariest thing and the world to go through!!!!

 

[Britt.f7]

I know even volunteering to be hospitalized is a scary experience so I can not imagine being pushed into it. I'm sorry that you are experiencing all of this. Are you able to talk about what led them to this? Not necessarily with us, but with anyone who is safe to you?

I imagine it must seem like it is a betrayal. My nephew did this to my sister and he threatened to tell them about the way he was raised so she backed off. I don't recommend this. I think my sister should have stood by her decision. He had substance abuse issues, among other things going on. Possible Schizophrenia.

I hope you find your answers. Not being in control, or having other people in control of your life, is a very scary experience.