Today I had a meeting with my employers, therapist and OT.
It definitely felt weird that that my psychologist attended the meeting however, good came out of it and work doesn't feel so awkward.
I'm in a management position, I have a classic A-type personality, I have worked on toning that down and I think I'm not even half as bad as other A-types I know. :wink: Plus, we make the world go around!!
Wait, maybe I should start at the beginning. I was in a MVA at the end of March I rolled my vehicle end over end 3X at 100km. I lost control on a icy road (I had no idea the roads ahead were bad). I spent 5 days in the hospital, I have recovered reasonably well physically, emotionally that's a different story.
I decided to seek support with a psychologist ( a suburb, compassionate lady). Her diagnosis...PTSD. I seemed quite fine managing my symptoms (stuffing them in a compartment) but crashed badly at work two + weeks ago. I felt very overwhelmed and felt the need to flee desperately (delayed reaction I'm told by my therapist). So, I decided to resign. Very extreme decision... just sent management an email and said, I'm done I can't do this anymore. I tearfully phoned my therapist right after I sent my email to my boss she told me that I must email them back and withdraw my resignation and explain that I'm displaying classic PTSD symptoms, management didn't have a clue what to think! Thankfully they didn't accept the resignation BUT they had no idea where my head was at. Scary for everyone. They told me not to return back to work for a week and to set up a meeting with my support people, so that they can know how to support me and know how to respond if I crash again (please God never again).
Well, the meeting happened and this classic A-type girl is back at work and hoping for the best. I have learnt a valuable lesson. If I'm stressed I need to deal with it no more stuffing! This is very difficult for me as I'm the queen of disconneting...but where did that get me...overwhelmed and out of control! Yuck.
Time to communicate and feel my feelings (does that make sense?) if I'm disappointed or sad I need to check in and deal with it. No more shutting down.
When I think about it, stuffing is not a healthy way of coping for me, it worked for a very, very long time but since the accident my mind says no more time to face the pain.
Scary yes, but I have courage and support around me and the memory of my crash at work to keep moving forward.
I wish all of you well on your journey.
Cheers
It definitely felt weird that that my psychologist attended the meeting however, good came out of it and work doesn't feel so awkward.
I'm in a management position, I have a classic A-type personality, I have worked on toning that down and I think I'm not even half as bad as other A-types I know. :wink: Plus, we make the world go around!!
Wait, maybe I should start at the beginning. I was in a MVA at the end of March I rolled my vehicle end over end 3X at 100km. I lost control on a icy road (I had no idea the roads ahead were bad). I spent 5 days in the hospital, I have recovered reasonably well physically, emotionally that's a different story.
I decided to seek support with a psychologist ( a suburb, compassionate lady). Her diagnosis...PTSD. I seemed quite fine managing my symptoms (stuffing them in a compartment) but crashed badly at work two + weeks ago. I felt very overwhelmed and felt the need to flee desperately (delayed reaction I'm told by my therapist). So, I decided to resign. Very extreme decision... just sent management an email and said, I'm done I can't do this anymore. I tearfully phoned my therapist right after I sent my email to my boss she told me that I must email them back and withdraw my resignation and explain that I'm displaying classic PTSD symptoms, management didn't have a clue what to think! Thankfully they didn't accept the resignation BUT they had no idea where my head was at. Scary for everyone. They told me not to return back to work for a week and to set up a meeting with my support people, so that they can know how to support me and know how to respond if I crash again (please God never again).
Well, the meeting happened and this classic A-type girl is back at work and hoping for the best. I have learnt a valuable lesson. If I'm stressed I need to deal with it no more stuffing! This is very difficult for me as I'm the queen of disconneting...but where did that get me...overwhelmed and out of control! Yuck.
Time to communicate and feel my feelings (does that make sense?) if I'm disappointed or sad I need to check in and deal with it. No more shutting down.
When I think about it, stuffing is not a healthy way of coping for me, it worked for a very, very long time but since the accident my mind says no more time to face the pain.
Scary yes, but I have courage and support around me and the memory of my crash at work to keep moving forward.
I wish all of you well on your journey.
Cheers
