Flash backs

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I haven’t been on here in a while because I’ve been doing pretty well. I’ve recently had to quit smoking weed for a job so my anxiety is coming back. Weed was the only thing that helped with the anxiety and PTSD because I won’t take pharmaceuticals. The last few days have been miserable for me. It started with a terrible flash back to being abused by my ex. I was having sex with my husband when it happened and I really thought he was my ex and I forgot where I was. I was sent right back into those moments that happened 4 years ago. I felt so guilty when I was finally able to snap out of it, I hate making him think that he did something wrong, he knows he didn’t and he is very supportive. But since that moment a few nights ago I’ve been so sad and empty feeling. I don’t want to be alone and I just know that it’s going to happen again. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what what will make it be quiet. Please help.